Not surprising a number of respondents have "troubled" pasts. I don't consider my upbringing abusive, but with a bunch of brothers we all fought quite a bit amongst ourselves. Was once thrown thru a glass storm window, and (with a bit of family pride) can say I've never been hit as hard as the lick my older brother applied to my solar plexus once as I flew at him in a blind rage - if sheer malice could have kept me animated, I surely would have killed him. Instead I sunk slowly to the floor as my legs couldn't hold me up no matter how hard I willed otherwise.
In any event I've had to work thru my own anger issues (I'm not going to elaborate on any of my other young adult BS fights and such) - once stopped at a gas station because the guy in front of me cut me off. Walked up, spit right between his shoes and waited for any response that would justify me laying into him. Decided this wasn't healthy. I started doing some meditation and it helped a lot. Also improved my MA considerably. I came to realize many of my past experiences that I used to consider helpful in a tension filled/physical encounter were actually harmful, they were tying my hands as to how best I might respond. There are better ways to become competent without conditioning your mind too narrowly, inserting an artificial filter between your perception of things and how they really are. If your mindset compromises or defines your view of the world too much, it becomes as dangerous to one's enjoyment of life as any physical adversary. As Bruce Lee implies throughout his teaching, you should strive toward a more true expression of yourself - in combat or otherwise.
Just a thought...



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