Apology to Miss Yangds and the HI FOrum

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shane justice

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Miss Yangdu, good people,

Anybody who follows recent threads will be aware that there was a small problem that involved me and a DOTD that went, "south" or ,"west", depending on what continent you stand on.

For the last 48 hours the situation and my part in it has caused me loss of sleep and peace of mind. I find myself going over my actions repeatedly. No matter how many times I replay it, there is no way to justify what I did or said.

Over the last ten or twelve years, my health has deteriorated. Chronic pain and nerve damage, erased the skills it took years to attain. The only thing in life I ever wanted to be was a blade smith. Now I battle with ten fingers that refuse to tie the shoes on my kid's feet.

What I did not understand was that the frustration and anger have been hardening my heart. For this I bear only shame. This is the last place I would wish to bring such hateful emotions.

Please accept my apology for all of this.

God Bless,

Shane Justice
 
we all get in a bad way man, it was not as bad as you think, it was just a venting of all you say; please stick around, hang out with us awhile, you may find it brings a measure of peace to you like it does many of us :D

I think if you had not brought those things here you would not have recognized it as something you needed to correct-- so again things go how they are supposed to go, I wish I could make cool stuff as well, I wish I could live forever :D but remember that part of life is learning to let it go, as we will all take that road eventually.

Above all, do not give up, and keep trying for what will really make you happy, even if it is just to carry on doing things , I mean you can do a lot even if you just got some grippy things with no real working fingers, above all you can do what you just did here, and make it right with yourself .

everybody gets past the point sometimes man, don't sweat it , and hang out with us !
 
Well said. We all make mistakes. All we can do is learn from them and move on. Thank you.
 
I was injured while in the last week of my AIT training in the Army. My drill sergeants told me I had just sprained my knee and to take it easy till after graduation. So I did. Three weeks later when I arrived at my permanent duty station, I went to sick call because I was in so much intense pain I could barely walk. Turns out I had been walking around for three weeks with a TORN MCL beside my knee. It caused permanent damage. I was 26 years old. For a couple years while going through surgery and physical therapy I acquired the nickname of "House" after the TV show doctor. I walked with a cane and was so mean and sarcastic due to pain that I didn't even care who I hurt with my words and actions. I know what chronic pain can do to a person. Thankfully my pain has gotten manageable, but I wanted to tell you that I understand what you're going through and can sympathize with you. I hope you find some relief.
 
It doesn't take much to make a mistake. It does take a lot to acknowledge the mistake and try to correct it.
 
Shane,

Apology accepted.

FWIW, I know exactly how you feel. I've been going thru the same thing for much of the last 5 years due to Arthritis, Disc Degeneration and Bone Spurs. Pain and numbness have been my constant companions.The constant pain is one thing, but the Anger and Frustration from not being able to do (even seemingly simple) things or have them put you in misery if you do them is quite another. The only way I can really describe it is....the demon of pain eating your body and mind in excruciatingly slow painful little bites that you feel every little nuance of. I dealt with the pain unmedicated until I could do it no more. Last year, I went to the doc and got put on meds to deal with the pain, anger and frustration. Sometimes they work. Sometimes theyre not enough. Sometimes I'm so medicated I can do nothing but sleep. My only real option so far is surgery. A procedure that I'm both hopeful will fix me and one that I'm scared that it could totally disable me and put me thru the pain Edutsi had to endure.

Most if not all are very protective of HI and especially the very gracious, understanding, caring and helpful lady that runs this show.
Most if not all of us have been beaten to the punch on a coveted item. We all go into this knowing that there is the chance we may not be able to purchase any given item. To me this only makes it that much sweeter when you are able to shark the item you want so badly and makes me appreciate these items and Aunties hard work more. I'll admit, I am completely biased having been fortunate enough to know Ms. Martino both as a customer and a dear friend. If it weren't for this subforum and her friendship, I would not be doing well at all. Who knows where I'd be, but I know it wouldn't be as good as it is for me now without. Auntie Yangdu is nearly the top when it comes to beautiful people/souls I've come to know in this lifetime....and I've been around the block a few times.

Whatever the deal was with the Rose, at least offer to make it mutually beneficial to both you and Yangdu. I think that you will find that it will help, along with your apology to bring your peace of mind back and turn bad karma to good.
 
Glad to have you back shane. Don't give it a second thought. We all have our bad days, you won't be judged here for for your "bad day". I wish you all the luck with the difficulties you are going through and look forward to more posts from you. Welcome back!
 
It takes a big and humble man to say those words Shane. God Bless you. Stay with this Band of blade brothers and enjoy some really good folks and friendships.
 
Shane:

Glad to have you back. I have chronic back and knee pain, so I know how it can make a person irritable and sometimes quick on the trigger to respond to frustration. Apology welcome and accepted.

-- Dave
 
Just warms my heart seeing a dying breed of people still around, that don't let their egos get the best of them, but are big enough to admit a mistake. Much respect, Shane. You're good people.
 
You have been our long time forum member and great support to HI , Kamis and forum.
Thank you for sharing
Prayers from HI, Pala, Kamis and Sarki
 
The Cherokee Rose project thread didn't seem inappropriate to me. You had some issues and planned a re-build. That has happened here before (ie. handle cracks due to weather, etc.) and results in a neat and creative solution. Maybe there was more which I missed, but found that thread interesting. BTW, Yangdu's response in the thread shows how she feels about customer satisfaction better than words can:thumbup:
 
Shane, Smoke and Prayers up for you dealing with all the rough issues you have been facing. As with Karda, I understand exactly what you are dealing with from personal experience. It is amazing how ongoing long term health issues eat at us. No matter how careful we are occasionally they overwhelm our best attempts. The fact you quickly identified that and came back with an apology demonstrates your usual depth of character. I deeply hope you are able to find some peace and respite from your issues. And I hope you are able to continue the work you were planning for the Cherokee Rose. I would love to see how it proceeds.
 
shane justice said:
Miss Yangdu, good people,

Anybody who follows recent threads will be aware that there was a small problem that involved me and a DOTD that went, "south" or ,"west", depending on what continent you stand on.

For the last 48 hours the situation and my part in it has caused me loss of sleep and peace of mind. I find myself going over my actions repeatedly. No matter how many times I replay it, there is no way to justify what I did or said.

Over the last ten or twelve years, my health has deteriorated. Chronic pain and nerve damage, erased the skills it took years to attain. The only thing in life I ever wanted to be was a blade smith. Now I battle with ten fingers that refuse to tie the shoes on my kid's feet.

What I did not understand was that the frustration and anger have been hardening my heart. For this I bear only shame. This is the last place I would wish to bring such hateful emotions.

Please accept my apology for all of this.

God Bless,

Shane Justice
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It takes a lot of guts to make an apology like that. Prayers for your pain. I can sort of relate. The pain itself is terrible, but, the part of not being able to do what you love, or fulfill the responsibilities you think you have, can be just as bad.
 
It is a humbling experience to read all the responses that have been added to this thread. Please know how grateful I am for the kindness and understanding that each of you has shown me.

Karma being what it is, has returned the evil which my anger has produced, and mirrored it back at me. I have been ill for awhile...and it looks like I am at the beginning of appendicitis. Have to go to the Doc this week to find out the bad news.

I have never been the sort of person who shirked when it came to accepting punishment. Better to just bite down hard and endure.

No sense in trying to predict rough seas ahead. May be just a terrible,awful tummy ache.

God's Grace to you, each and every one.

Shane Justice

P.S. I saw that another Chitlangi Bowie was for sale recently. If I had just waited a while I could have had that one. Unfortunately, my character was more interested in making waves than being patient and waiting for the Universe to provide the new opportunity.
 
There'll be more where that came from, have no fear! Worst comes to worst, you could order one or email Auntie to see if she has any in the box. It's great to have you back! Karma's got it's way of only dishing back what you deserve so I don't think you'll be off too gosh awful, we all git hit by it at one point or another, hoping the doc say's it's minor and you'll be back to full health soon, smoke and prayers sent.
 
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