Darn life

Federico

Federico

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Somedays it just seems like if you have brown and are not rich the world just wants to take a piss on you. Darn it Im drunk, life sucks, and I shouldnt be posting. Uncle Bill go ahead and delete this post if you want, but darn it somedays life jiust pisses on you, and you cant deal with it....:( Darn it I love my son, I love my mom, why muyst I chose between em..... Argfhlkasssssssssssssssss family family family......
 
I ain't drunk ( got off the booze nearly 12 years ago ) and I ain't brown, ( speech and hearing problems ) but I love my son ( autistic ) and my grandmother was devastating to the whole family til she died in her 90's half a year ago.

It doesn't bother me a bit that you come here to blow off steam. Matter of fact I'm glad you feel you can. Life sucks at times, and that's a fact. You seem fairly young but you've heard the older guys sound off about their health. I'm not going to repeat my problems with health services, I've already done that enough. It happens at any age and it helps to know others are in the same or similar situations.

You aren't alone. My email is available and I'll send you my phone if you want when the booze wears off.
 
Life like that Bro !!

You have friends here - get it off your chest !!

Best forum in the world !!

B
 
Fed
Hang in there. My $.02 worth, booze ain't the answer. I know from first hand experience (like many others here).

Talk about it, get it out on the table. Decide what to do, then do it. Things will work out for you.

Good luck.

By the way, I still remember your advice about how to heat my handle when I was trying to fix the loose laha (rattles) in my BAS. Thanks again for it. :)

Semp --
 
I don't got nuthin' and I also wallow in the vast bucket of human waste that is the world today.

I dunno, I don't know what to say either because I don't know if I have any answers.

:(
 
There is plenty of bad news to go around these days. Hang in there. Alot, of this stuff tends to work itself out, and sometimes it even looks better in the morning.

n2s
 
There's nothing worse than family troubles(in my limited life experience.) I feel for you Fed.

Don't worry about venting here one bit. I am also glad that you chose to do so. I've never been comfortable staying on the surface of things, chit chat and the rest... I often scare people away by being too open about how I feel about things, but the ones who stick around become real, true friends. I said more than perhaps I should have here awhile back about the troll problem and probably angered more than a few folks here, but I feel that I spoke what was really true to me...

Anyway, no need to be sorry or ashamed IMO. I hope all works out. Do what I DON'T usually do: talk it out with those involved, but keep your temper in check. DOn't let things get too far and then stew about it inside. My biggest regrets are NOT saying anything when I should have...

my .02. I'm only 30 so take it for what its worth. I haven't seen or been through half what some of these older guys have. I have been a drunk and almost lost my wife because of it. I do think that if you don't have a problem with alcohol, getting messed up once in awhile can be a healthy way to let off steam. Just make sure its not an excuse to get messed up more often than not...

I hope there is another option besides your son OR your mom. I hope you find a painfree solution my friend.
 
Good thread. I don't what being brown has to do with it. They'll hate you in the Mountains and they'll hate you on the flats. They hate you at the beach cause you're not where it's at. They'll take any damn excuse at all to pick a wound and let the blood fly.
My Brother has spoken 4 sentences to me in about 10 years. He has three nephews ( my sons) he has never spoken to at all.

my dog died the other day, and left me all alone
the finance man came, to repossess my home
but that's just a drop in the bucket, compared to losing you,
and I'm down to seed and stems again, too.

Commander Cody


It's worth going through. We don't really know why. Most the things we hate or crush us end up either not bad or a path we had to take. Some things just crush you, though, like the loss of life.

munk
 
Family can hurt the worst, because they are closest to you. Lose the booze. I and many others have proven that it does the opposite of what you want it too, and just gives the tongues more to wag about.
We are all kapatid na lalaki here, brown, red....hell, even GREEN. There have been times when, if we didn't have a place to let it hang out, we would have exploded. Next sun-up could change it around. Keep the faith.
 
I, too, am pleased that you posted your problems, Fed. Talking about them always helps and you get good feedback here.

I've been thru almost the same thing and survived. My Mom disapproved of my marriage to Yangdu almost 20 years ago and told me that Yangdu would never be welcome in her home. The result was I didn't go home to visit for 15 years. I didn't quit loving my Mom and I don't think she quit loving me but she had a personal hangup, good woman that she was generally, about brown-yellow people. (Keep in mind when we were both younger and outside a lot both my Dad and I would tan a shade or two browner (yellower?) than Yangdu.)

Count your blessings and remember nobody ever said it would be easy.
 
Faith has proved to be stronger than feelings for me in life. I won't tell you what to believe in, that is your journey. I found something that has worked for me though and I lean on it's Thruth's. Those Truths are uncontaminated by my feelings and situations. I rely on a higher power's rules for living which don't change; rather than mine that do. I hope you find your way, I will pray for you.
 
Being poor and down and out and heavily armed with khukuris from HI is infinitely superior to just being down and out.

.. ... ...

Bobwhite, I learned a long time ago never to be too proud to get on my knees and ask for help.

munk
 
Morning has broken like the first dawn here. Im sorry for venting last night. I normally do not drink that much, and Ive been through harrier times that just did not seem as dark. Thank you all for the support. It means a great deal to me. Yesterday was just the last hair on the camels back, so to speak, in a long period of trying times. It made me miss my dad more than normal, and amazed me how much he truly meant to me in ways that I never realized or thought possible. Harsh words can be said between siblings, and it hurts all the more when its from someone who supposedly loves you. Once again, I appreciate all the support. I am hoping that things have bottomed out, and am looking for the light at the end of this dark tunnel.

Wal maraming salamat
 
I'm glad you're feeling a little better.

Maybe some of that khukuri chili would be good for some venting. In with the good air, out with the bad air.

Wal mart Salmon

:confused:
 
FED,Everyone has felt that way.U are not ALONE ok.:D I've been there quite a few times myself.The sh*@ that has happened to me boy ,I don't know.;) My daughter keeps me going:D :D .FRANK C....
 
I believe that in this time of year (Just after the festival of Winteer Nights), the wall between the worlds of the living and dead grows thinner. It is at this time until spring that remberance of our ancestry is most powerful. Just cause you cant see your dad does not mean he is not there, for in fact you carry a part of him in you always. Course, I consider it healthy to talk to the dead every now and again...hope that don't make me crazy.

Difficulties with family and friends are the norm. They can often be workrd out with time, patience, and understanding. Now if all relatives coulld be so open...

Keith
 
We've all had our times...we've all posted at least part of them here. For me, the piquant philosopies of "The Bruiser" can...well...clear the air... faster than anything. Anyone who can rip a laugh out of me when I'm gritting my teeth is, indeed, Saudi royalty, or any other kind of royalty he wants to be.
 
Federico: fuggedaboudit.

Actually, don't worry. There are those of us who've been down, who remember it very well, and are glad to have a chance to encourage someone else.
 
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