Raises hand ...
yeah me .. since early childhood , had 2x cardio respiratory arrests .. ( after the last one , I had a brittish accent that stayed with e for over 20 years )
I was on a box of meds , intal cortisone in 2 different forms , ventolin by pufer and nebuliser .. chronic asthmatic for 30 years out of my 42
When I was in the ICU as a kid Ihad been doing deep breathing excersizes before but I realised I could mess with the vitals monitors , and raise and lower my heart rate and skin temp . I got it low enough the nurses freaked a few times , resulting in more ICU time , more time to mess with the monitors ...
we figured out over time that chemicals could trigger asthma , tobacco smoke , petrol , diesel smoke , white spirits , paint thinners etc , body filler ... kinda ended my panel beating / spray painting career ..
Then we figured out diet , wheat , gluten , some dairy .. cream is OK , yoghourts and cheese are OK but milk itself as milk in bottles and cartons , no , fresh milk from the cow ,is OK oddly enough .. perfumes tho ... yeah they bad news ..
essentially I can do as my doctor thinks I should , dose up on 3 different preventers and regular using a reliever , and live a normal asthmatic life , or I can live kinda like a hermit ..and be medication free , just missing out on regular food , social life etc .
I chose the hermit option ...
Interesting tho , when I was daily using the ventolin , it didnt have much effect at all on me . Now , when I use it , it hits hard .. my head has the dizy feel , my heart beats so hard you can see it moving my chest .. its effect has increased drastically .
The breathing control I learned as a kid trying to beat asthma , has paid off , several times , being able to slow my heart some , when its racing stupid fast , and being used to a kind of restricted breathing .. breathing in deep and slow , hold for five secs , breathe out slow, hold out for five , breathe in ..hold ... makes the deliberately having to breath in and out forcing the body to comply when having an attack not quite so scary .. where as a kid Id fold up and panic , and end up with vitals going screwy , hospital , jump starting etc ... I can hold it together long enough to get away from what caused it usually ,make a call to family ,or just sit quiet waiting until things get back to normalize , and I can go on doing what I was doing . I get some god awful pain from trying to just breathe tho .. it is torture , knowing I have to breathe in again and feeling as if the muscles under my shoulders are tearing apart every time . Just nature adding extra fun to not being able to breathe I guess .. as if that werent scary enough .
In an emergency situation with no medication , I have been able to hang on thru the attack , its scary , and its borderline panic for a while , but for me , it is about holding on to control of my body , not letting go to panic . not giving in when the breathing muscles are so painful its torture to keep on forcing to breathe , just holding on , hanging on to the knowing it *will* pass .
I wont lie it is scary scary scary stuff .