How Becker knives saved my life

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Hey folks.

I haven't posted here in a while, and there is a reason for that. Let me tell you my story.

I joined this forum in March 2011. At that time, I had just dropped out of university, was unemployed and living off my parents. I was suffering from severe depression, I took meds daily, went to therapy once a week. That was it. I was living with my girlfriend in a small apartment in the inner city of Berlin. Our relationship was also suffering badly from my illness, which in turn made me even sadder.

Then I found this community, all the nice things you can do with and to those great knives, making sheaths, handle wraps, custom scales, complete makeovers... you name it. A lot to do. It became my obsession, which would have been bad for everyone else, but for me it was freeing, it was liberating me from my depression. I started going out more, to the shop and to the woods, I spent countless hours with those knives. I stayed up whole nights chatting with pople on the Beckerchat or stitching leather pieces to each other.

My girlfriend dumped me in June. By that time I had gotten a lot better, if I hadn't, this would have destroyed me. But I managed to pull through, put in a week long trip to poland where I lived in a teepee camp with a french survival instructor, made some more sheaths, and started an apprenticeship in the metal industry in September.

Since then I haven't looked back. I'm okay now, and I know this mostly thanks to you people. If you hadn't been here I would have probably broken down and just killed myself.

So there you have it, every knife I own is a survival knife to me. And if someone ever asks you "So how bout dem survival knives? Has one of these things ever actually saved someone's life?" - well, now you know at least one.

Thank you all, for everything. Moose, Bladite, DerekH, MWTIC/NixLeather, Guyon, Tdubz, Murphnuge, Oregon FAL'er, Mr. Ethan Becker, and everyone else who makes this place what it is.

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Good to see you around meat. You're one of the good guys. :thumbup:
 
Thanks for the eloquent & heartfelt story, meat, and welcome back. I think I can relate to that a little bit more than I'd care to admit. Good on you for finding your calling, and answering it. I've been overwhelmed by the warmth, generosity and sense of community of the people here.
I'd love to hear what brought you here, to BF, if you'd care to tell it.
 
Hey the more the merrier up in here:) I too come to the forum when I need a distraction. Especially here in the BK&T forum where you can often find something funny to read. I was in a similar situation to yours back in 08' and then I found an interest in knives and survival which helped me to focus my mind and allowed me to get into a hobby I really enjoyed. Then in 2011 when I found BF it opened up a world I would've never found otherwise. The amount of knowledge I gained since coming here has made my love of knives and even 'survival' so much greater. Unlike many members here I am not also a member on a bunch of other knife forums. There's something about the people here, their kindness, their generosity, and the way that, instead of judging or ridiculing those new to the hobby and those who don't know as much as they do, they go above and beyond to inform and assist any way they can(for the most part anyway;)) The people here are what make this forum so great and I wouldn't doubt that there's others out there who had their life improved by bladeforums.
 
awesome stuff, maethor, glad you pulled thru with this awesome therapy of knives and the net. Beautiful 2 btw!
 
maethor you are alright.
I'm sure it it wouldn't have been knives it could have been something else. Im sure if you would have found interest in figure skating and joined their online community and started learning it it would have saved you too.
What most do here in the forum we would have done anyways and it's not for you. At least I'm only here because I like knives and not because I want to help anybody with their lives.
Just saying 100% of the credit for making the turn around should go to you alone! You are the man, nobody else.
 
What happened to the 2 you thinned down?

Tried to saw the tip off to make it a slightly shorter spearpoint blade, noticed it is very very hard as soon as you get about 1mm deep into the steel (waaay to hard to saw) and then tried to break it off in a vise. After some hard work, it snapped off... but unfortunately 1/2" closer to the handle than I wanted. So now I'll have to grind it into some wharncliffe/santoku shape to make it usable again. It's a work in progress ;-)

Thank you all for your nice replies.

Jens Schuetz, that's very kind of you, but really, when you're down on the ground and you hate yourself so much that you don't even consider yourself worthy of breathing anymore, you just need someone to pick you up. And that someone turned out to be this community. People, if you notice one of your friends or relatives drifting away or isolating themselves, talk to them. Assure them that you are there to listen and help if they need you. Who knows, you might end up saving someone. Depression and similar mental illnesses are far more common than you think.
 
Good to sea back Meat. Look forward to bugging the sh!t out of you again on chat. ;)
 
I'm glad you're still around mate, and I'm glad that you've got something passionate to live for. This really is a great community, and although I am new here if you ever need to talk to someone, I'll do my best to try and help out.
 
Good to hear your better maet...Actually, your story is pretty similar to mine...

When I joined up almost a year ago I felt a similar way to you and joined just to have people around, especially (slightly ;)) more mature people...Lots of people on my Facebook would complain and make jokes about how they had "depression" and it just started pissing me off seeing it all as well as all their status updates and pictures about how their life was so freaking great.

Being here was my escape where people just talked about knives and I liked feeling like the guy who put G-10 on beckers rather than the f@#$ed up kid who disappeared from school.

Sorry to jack your thread maetor...I just needed to vent that out...Makes me feel better getting it out in the open (No damn jokes about taking off your pants here) where I can confront it and leave it behind rather than have it stick like sidewalk strawberry gum.
 
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Heey Maethor, good to have you back man. I missed your posts here. Knew you were busy doing parkour and all that, so I thought maybe it was that that kept you from posting. If only I would have known! If you want to chat up, hook me up on FB. We had some great talks there too.
I'm really glad you're doing better. Keep it up man, keep it up.
 
Good to hear your better maet...Actually, your story is pretty similar to mine...

When I joined up almost a year ago I felt a similar way to you and joined just to have people around, especially (slightly ;)) more mature people...Lots of people on my Facebook would complain and make jokes about how they had "depression" and it just started pissing me off seeing it all as well as all their status updates and pictures about how their life was so freaking great.

Sorry to jack your thread maetor...I just needed to vent that out...Makes me feel better getting it out in the open (No damn jokes about taking off your pants here) where I can confront it and leave it behind rather than have it stick like sidewalk strawberry gum.

No problem my friend, I get so pissed too when people who are perfectly fine post about how "depressed" they are about totally random things. Luckily, at 22, with few friends that are younger than me, that rarely happens. Venting out is always good, and it's important to have a place where you feel welcome and accepted, even if it's an online community of utter nutjobs :D

Heey Maethor, good to have you back man. I missed your posts here. Knew you were busy doing parkour and all that, so I thought maybe it was that that kept you from posting. If only I would have known! If you want to chat up, hook me up on FB. We had some great talks there too.
I'm really glad you're doing better. Keep it up man, keep it up.

Thanks :) I'll write you soon bro, promise!
 
I came for the before and after shots of the axe fight. I guess the pic of the BK2 will suffice. Glad to see you still around meatball.
 
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