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before reading: this is a long drawn out explanation of internal dialogues and conflicts that I have. as everyone knows, more often then not they are only really interesting to the people having them (with themselves), so ya... 
right now I'm in super materialist reduction mode, selling everything except that wich I can fit into my little 88 toyota celica.
that basically means I'll have this by the end of it:
-5 boxes of books (that will completely fill the trunk)
-a weeks worth of clothes and one pair of boots, as well as what I wear on me (jacket and gloves specifically)
-my computer
-my sewing machine (a pfaff something or other... one of the first digital models)
-my electrolysis machine (I have a lot of tats I'm working on removing the hair from)
-instruments (small keyboard, my mothers guitar (can't ever sell), my ibanez artcore af75 guitar, my epiphone banjo, and my 6 string violin)
-my personal files
-and my knives.
thats it. I think that that will fill the entire back seat, the trunk, and most of the front passenger seat. I could do without the sewing machine and the electrolysis machine, but the sewing machine was a gift and will help keep clothes longer, and the electrolysis machine is expensive, hard to get ahold of, and having someone else do it is way, WAY more expensive then owning the machine and doing it myself.
I want a guitar, banjo, keyboard and violin. I just can't sell the aria classical my mother gave me, ever. I'll use it to play on the streets if It ever comes to that. I'll be walkin around with a 30" ang khola and an aria classical guitar strapped to my back.
SO. that leaves the knives. and that puts me in a bit of an akward position. I'm going to keep my swiss army knife in my jacket because It wouldn't sell for anything and doesnt take up any space, and I'm taking my leatherman becuase it is ultimately the one survival tool I would choose above all else.
there are 2 knives that I can't really sell... my modded NICK and my 30" ang khola. the nick is way to far out of the busse warrantee to sell it as anything remotely busse quality. if I ever sold it, it would have to be for 50$ or less, and with a billion caution statements saying it's not warranted. or I could gift it. and my 30" Ang Khola that I bought from bill martino. the only way I could ever have that leave my hands would be to gift it. otherwise it's staying with me to the grave. i sold it once, and regretted it until I was able to get it back. never again.
so that brings me to my current conundrum. at this moment I have 3 busses, and 3 on the way (someday). I have my NICK mod, a satin jack tac standard edition, and a ffbm that has been found! after a long time of being lost. the three that are coming are 2 custom choiless skinner/slicers and a moab.
So I have been going back and forth on wether to sell the sjtac and the ffbm.
basically, I'm trying to figure out just how important each part of my "triad" is. my triad = super thin skinner/slicer, prybar/semi chopper, and heavy chopper.
if I do without the heavy chopper, my prybar semi chopper can come in for some of that, and you can baton if all else fails. With sheeple jobs, all I carry is my leatherman anyways. I can always buy a 10$ axe later on to do heavy chopping, and that will give me the 450$ some odd dollars that I need now. machete's are cheap as well.
if I do without the prybar/semi chopper, the heavy chopper will take over for prybar actions - but only when I'm carrying it. what if I get caught in a turned over car? or a friend gets turned over in front of me as I'm following them?
these are the kinds of arguments one has with themselves even though they know better. the reality is that I should just sell all of them and carry my leatherman. I never carry anything else anymore, and if I'm just going to be using the stuff around the house, cheaping dedicated tools will be better at their individual tasks.
but its the turned over car bit that really gets me. I can't sell the satin jack. it's to perfect. I'll sell the ffbm, because I have the moab coming, and I may sell the NICK mod for 25$ someday once I get my slicers, but I'm keeping the sjtac. if I have 2 tools, it will be that and the leatherman. it's just to perfect.
right now I'm in super materialist reduction mode, selling everything except that wich I can fit into my little 88 toyota celica.
that basically means I'll have this by the end of it:
-5 boxes of books (that will completely fill the trunk)
-a weeks worth of clothes and one pair of boots, as well as what I wear on me (jacket and gloves specifically)
-my computer
-my sewing machine (a pfaff something or other... one of the first digital models)
-my electrolysis machine (I have a lot of tats I'm working on removing the hair from)
-instruments (small keyboard, my mothers guitar (can't ever sell), my ibanez artcore af75 guitar, my epiphone banjo, and my 6 string violin)
-my personal files
-and my knives.
thats it. I think that that will fill the entire back seat, the trunk, and most of the front passenger seat. I could do without the sewing machine and the electrolysis machine, but the sewing machine was a gift and will help keep clothes longer, and the electrolysis machine is expensive, hard to get ahold of, and having someone else do it is way, WAY more expensive then owning the machine and doing it myself.
I want a guitar, banjo, keyboard and violin. I just can't sell the aria classical my mother gave me, ever. I'll use it to play on the streets if It ever comes to that. I'll be walkin around with a 30" ang khola and an aria classical guitar strapped to my back.
SO. that leaves the knives. and that puts me in a bit of an akward position. I'm going to keep my swiss army knife in my jacket because It wouldn't sell for anything and doesnt take up any space, and I'm taking my leatherman becuase it is ultimately the one survival tool I would choose above all else.
there are 2 knives that I can't really sell... my modded NICK and my 30" ang khola. the nick is way to far out of the busse warrantee to sell it as anything remotely busse quality. if I ever sold it, it would have to be for 50$ or less, and with a billion caution statements saying it's not warranted. or I could gift it. and my 30" Ang Khola that I bought from bill martino. the only way I could ever have that leave my hands would be to gift it. otherwise it's staying with me to the grave. i sold it once, and regretted it until I was able to get it back. never again.
so that brings me to my current conundrum. at this moment I have 3 busses, and 3 on the way (someday). I have my NICK mod, a satin jack tac standard edition, and a ffbm that has been found! after a long time of being lost. the three that are coming are 2 custom choiless skinner/slicers and a moab.
So I have been going back and forth on wether to sell the sjtac and the ffbm.
basically, I'm trying to figure out just how important each part of my "triad" is. my triad = super thin skinner/slicer, prybar/semi chopper, and heavy chopper.
if I do without the heavy chopper, my prybar semi chopper can come in for some of that, and you can baton if all else fails. With sheeple jobs, all I carry is my leatherman anyways. I can always buy a 10$ axe later on to do heavy chopping, and that will give me the 450$ some odd dollars that I need now. machete's are cheap as well.
if I do without the prybar/semi chopper, the heavy chopper will take over for prybar actions - but only when I'm carrying it. what if I get caught in a turned over car? or a friend gets turned over in front of me as I'm following them?
these are the kinds of arguments one has with themselves even though they know better. the reality is that I should just sell all of them and carry my leatherman. I never carry anything else anymore, and if I'm just going to be using the stuff around the house, cheaping dedicated tools will be better at their individual tasks.
but its the turned over car bit that really gets me. I can't sell the satin jack. it's to perfect. I'll sell the ffbm, because I have the moab coming, and I may sell the NICK mod for 25$ someday once I get my slicers, but I'm keeping the sjtac. if I have 2 tools, it will be that and the leatherman. it's just to perfect.
, this past year has just showed me where my priorities need to be.
