I have a knife problem

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This week started out normally. Over the weekend I got a Kershaw Leek. It's an awesome knife. I spent the whole day opening and closing it. The action was really satisfying, but that evening I checked out some videos of ZT's and realized I wanted something with more heft. I went to a local shop and picked up an 0909. Using this thing was like an adrenaline rush. I meant to go to bed but wound up staying awake through Sunday morning, flipping it over and over again. It was awesome!

Sunday I woke up around noon. I dreamt about the 0909 all night! I dreamt about disassembling and lubricating it. I dreamt about a ZT factory worker sharpening it. Is this normal? Anyway I set up a return of the Leek with the dealer, cause I knew it just wasn't enough for me any more. I skipped breakfast and sat down with some typing paper and cut about 1000 strips with the 0909, but then I got wondering: What was better than this? The strips of paper were all over the floor, but some of them had little 'twists' in their shape at the ends. Is that a sign that the blade is too thick?

Anyway I watched about 12 hours of knife videos back-to-back, and I realized that you could flick a Chris Reeve knife. The Inkosi looks amazing so I mail ordered one with overnight shipping. I sat there flipping the 0909 over and over, thinking about how the CRK wouldn't arrive till Tuesday. The 0909 was great but the experience was getting progressively duller, less thrilling. Have other people experienced this? I felt like I was getting annoyed, and my mind wouldn't think about anything but the knife shop, which was already closed.

Sunday night was pretty hard. I slept with the 0909 on my night stand, which was simultaneously gratifying but also sort of tormented me. For some reason, all I could think about was the less-than-ideal sound of the detent ball dropping off the lockbar just before engagement. Again I hardly slept.

When the first light arrived, I phoned in sick to work and immediately headed out to the shop. That was when I saw the Medford Pretorian for the first time. I don't know why I can't remember the emotions or the reasoning, but I put it on my credit card, and I was out of the shop in 5 minutes and headed home. Even though I was on 3 hours of sleep, I was walking with a spring in my step (with a slight asymmetry of gait owing to the weight of the Medford). I felt amazing.

All of Monday morning was beautiful. It's cold here but the light is warm. I walked around cutting *everything* with the Medford. I cut a bunch of vegetables and photographed the result for Instagram. I used it to livestream digging a hole in rocky soil on Facebook. The blade was all scratched up and that made it look even better. I don't remember what happened after that. I woke up sitting in my lawn chair at 10pm freezing cold. The Medford still operated smoothly. I went inside and slept.

Tuesday the Inkosi arrived at work. I opened the box. It's beautiful. I flicked it about a hundred times and showed it off to my friends at lunch. They loved it too. I felt high as a kite, but by the time lunch was over, I started to feel weird. I knew this wasn't as good as the Medford in some ways. I went to the kitchen and played with some of the knives there. I laughed condescendingly at some non-full-tang steak knives, then started to cry. I left work early to go home and get the Medford. But then I spent the evening sitting on my bed, looking at the Medford and the CRK, photographing them repeatedly, rubbing them with a microfiber cloth, with a slowly growing sense of disappointment in the flaws of each.

Today I've been to the local knife shop twice. At 9am I bought a Shirogorov 111 which is amazing, but my high peaked at noon. I think it's overpriced now. I just got back from the store with a Peter Rassenti Satori custom and I feel great, but I don't know how long this will last. What do I do?
 
As Gregor Samsa awoke one morning from uneasy dreams he found himself transformed in his bed into a Medford Praetorian. He was laying on his hard, as it were armor-plated, scales and when he lifted his blade a little he could see his groove-like brown micarta divided into stiff arched segments on top of which the bed quilt could hardly keep in position and was about to slide off completely. His numerous washers, which were pitifully thin compared to the rest of his bulk, spun helplessly before his eyes...
 
I think you need to seek professional help. Added: This impulse buying is the kind of thing I did after getting a divorce and had what seemed like "money to burn". Maybe you'll get over it or maybe you won't. ;)
 
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Develop a "love interest" with someone that's not a knife ! ;)
 
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First of all thanks for your "share". This is a safe non judgement zone. The highs and lows you are experiencing are normal for knife addicts. Soon your bank statements and credit card bills will catch up and then there will be another exhilarating high and low from selling some of the knives you have acquired but no longer live up to your standards. Dont be alarmed you will hit another lull where you will need to purchase something again to fill the void left behind from the sale. Then the cycle will repeat. This is all perfectly normal for people like us and everyone else just doesn't get it. You came to the right place but I was a little jealous of the serious hardware you acquired in such a short period of time. But I am not judging. Its a big jump from the leek to an Inkosi but very logical.
 
A problem that also involves knives, yes. Glad you're finding at least a momentary thrill with your new acquisitions.
 
Interesting.. my interest and passion towards knives is somewhat similar just more of a "time release".

Your post spread across 2 years.
 
May actually be a problem if your behavior is significantly impacting your life in a negative way. For example, calling in sick to work, spending most of your time and energy on knives, not sleeping, spending impulsively, etc, may or may or may not have a significant negative impact on you. It does sound like part of you is not enjoying this, ex- the frustration and anxiety, and increasing lack of satisfaction associated with what is going on.
 
What do I do?
First of all, contact the initial vendor, apologize, and repurchase your Leek. I won't get into the whys, just do it.
Next, spend an hour or two looking at traditional offerings. Nevermind that they don't have pocket clips, and that you can't flick them. Decide on whether you like a clip, spear, wharncliffe, or sheepfoot blade. Consider bone vs wood vs stag vs other. Single vs multiple blades...then buy one of each.
Now, you need to consider fixed blade. Find out the legalities of your area. While you are researching that, look up LT Wright Patriot and Spyderco Mule (see also Halpern scales for Mule), buy one of each. If you can legally carry longer, start researching bigger blades.
Find out if autos are legal in your state. If so, a Protech Newport is a good starting point (but feel free to investigate larger blades, like a Microtech LUDT or Benchmade Presidio).
*Warning - refrain from calling into work due to knife stresses...if you lose your job, you won't be able to afford new knives.
 
First of all, contact the initial vendor, apologize, and repurchase your Leek. I won't get into the whys, just do it.
Next, spend an hour or two looking at traditional offerings. Nevermind that they don't have pocket clips, and that you can't flick them. Decide on whether you like a clip, spear, wharncliffe, or sheepfoot blade. Consider bone vs wood vs stag vs other. Single vs multiple blades...then buy one of each.
Now, you need to consider fixed blade. Find out the legalities of your area. While you are researching that, look up LT Wright Patriot and Spyderco Mule (see also Halpern scales for Mule), buy one of each. If you can legally carry longer, start researching bigger blades.
Find out if autos are legal in your state. If so, a Protech Newport is a good starting point (but feel free to investigate larger blades, like a Microtech LUDT or Benchmade Presidio).
*Warning - refrain from calling into work due to knife stresses...if you lose your job, you won't be able to afford new knives.

Don't forget the LT Wright Outback in 3V! My next fixed blade purchase! I think we all share the same sickness here in varying degrees!
 
Forgot to mention I had sold my/our house as a result of the divorce also and that expense disappeared for about 5 years. Living in a van and an abandoned building.... certainly character building.
 
This week started out normally. Over the weekend I got a Kershaw Leek. It's an awesome knife. I spent the whole day opening and closing it. The action was really satisfying, but that evening I checked out some videos of ZT's and realized I wanted something with more heft. I went to a local shop and picked up an 0909. Using this thing was like an adrenaline rush. I meant to go to bed but wound up staying awake through Sunday morning, flipping it over and over again. It was awesome!

Sunday I woke up around noon. I dreamt about the 0909 all night! I dreamt about disassembling and lubricating it. I dreamt about a ZT factory worker sharpening it. Is this normal? Anyway I set up a return of the Leek with the dealer, cause I knew it just wasn't enough for me any more. I skipped breakfast and sat down with some typing paper and cut about 1000 strips with the 0909, but then I got wondering: What was better than this? The strips of paper were all over the floor, but some of them had little 'twists' in their shape at the ends. Is that a sign that the blade is too thick?

Anyway I watched about 12 hours of knife videos back-to-back, and I realized that you could flick a Chris Reeve knife. The Inkosi looks amazing so I mail ordered one with overnight shipping. I sat there flipping the 0909 over and over, thinking about how the CRK wouldn't arrive till Tuesday. The 0909 was great but the experience was getting progressively duller, less thrilling. Have other people experienced this? I felt like I was getting annoyed, and my mind wouldn't think about anything but the knife shop, which was already closed.

Sunday night was pretty hard. I slept with the 0909 on my night stand, which was simultaneously gratifying but also sort of tormented me. For some reason, all I could think about was the less-than-ideal sound of the detent ball dropping off the lockbar just before engagement. Again I hardly slept.

When the first light arrived, I phoned in sick to work and immediately headed out to the shop. That was when I saw the Medford Pretorian for the first time. I don't know why I can't remember the emotions or the reasoning, but I put it on my credit card, and I was out of the shop in 5 minutes and headed home. Even though I was on 3 hours of sleep, I was walking with a spring in my step (with a slight asymmetry of gait owing to the weight of the Medford). I felt amazing.

All of Monday morning was beautiful. It's cold here but the light is warm. I walked around cutting *everything* with the Medford. I cut a bunch of vegetables and photographed the result for Instagram. I used it to livestream digging a hole in rocky soil on Facebook. The blade was all scratched up and that made it look even better. I don't remember what happened after that. I woke up sitting in my lawn chair at 10pm freezing cold. The Medford still operated smoothly. I went inside and slept.

Tuesday the Inkosi arrived at work. I opened the box. It's beautiful. I flicked it about a hundred times and showed it off to my friends at lunch. They loved it too. I felt high as a kite, but by the time lunch was over, I started to feel weird. I knew this wasn't as good as the Medford in some ways. I went to the kitchen and played with some of the knives there. I laughed condescendingly at some non-full-tang steak knives, then started to cry. I left work early to go home and get the Medford. But then I spent the evening sitting on my bed, looking at the Medford and the CRK, photographing them repeatedly, rubbing them with a microfiber cloth, with a slowly growing sense of disappointment in the flaws of each.

Today I've been to the local knife shop twice. At 9am I bought a Shirogorov 111 which is amazing, but my high peaked at noon. I think it's overpriced now. I just got back from the store with a Peter Rassenti Satori custom and I feel great, but I don't know how long this will last. What do I do?

I think many people are underwhelmed by the CRKs if they don’t know what is there to appreciate. If you hand a plain jane CRK to a nonknife person most of them will have no idea what makes it special or valuable.

To this day the CRKs in my collection are the standard I judge by. The Medford is a cool knife too but largely a “tactical” knife with military design cues. I have always considered the CRKs to be the “framelock for civillians.” However they are not for everyone. I got to a point in my knife collecting where I have a better idea what I am looking for.
 
Based on your activity over the past few days I'm just wondering how you found time to write all of that out? I assume many breaks were taken to mess around with the knives in question.

I had a period of impulsively acquiring knives, only instead of buying new ones I exchanged the "new" one for a "newer" one. I went from a D2 Grip to a 940 to a M4 PM2 to a 0562cf to a Mini Grip(plus cash) all in trades here. I've settled down since, I found great company in the Spyderco Mantra 1. I think my "problem" was I was looking for The Perfect Knife. I still have the urge every now and then...
 
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