I'm only active on this forum for a relatively short time, and it feels like a strange thing to post this on a knife forum, but for some reason I feel like doing this.
I don't think I've said this before on this forum, so I will give you guys a short introduction to what has happened to me.
I've had a bike accident in December, and went on surgery a week later. Since then, I cant use my right shoulder, and with it I've lost the use of pretty much my whole right arm for normal activities.
After the operations, doctors told me I would regain the full use of my right shoulder in about 6 months.
But last Friday, I got some pretty bad news. They discovered that an important nerve in my shoulder(for the ones who know it, it's the "axillary nerve", controlling the Deltoid and Teres minor muscles) isn't working, and heavy damaged by the operation. I already knew the operation didn't go as planned and went to a different doctor after I realized that, but didn't know it went that bad. They said the chances of healing up are very small, and there is a big chance I will never be able to use my right shoulder again like it should.
There is a small chance the nerve is squeezed by the bad operation, and only in that case there would be a chance of fixing it with an operation. Tomorrow I will have a special scan of my shoulder that will be able to tell if that's the case. Although they said the chance isn't big, I am telling myself that this is the case, and that there is still hope. But I have big problems waiting for the scan and its results, and feel really bad by it. I'm afraid of bad news, but am hoping it will turn out good in the same time. I never felt "depressed" before, but the uncertainty feels very bad, and I don't function normally these past days.
I used to do lots of sports(bouldering, rock climbing, biking, ...) before, but now the only sport I can still do is running(and I find that boring). Even typing this on my computer hurts my shoulder, but in the last half year I've learned to live with it, with the thought it would only be temporary. I will probably loose this year at hight school because I'm not able to work for my exams as I could in the previous years.
It also gives me other problems like not being able to control the gearbox of the car properly, not being able to carry things with two hands, ...
I even got afraid of heights, something that I never experienced before. When standing next to a depth, I know that I won't be able to stop myself from falling with one arm. I was also confident in myself before, and knew that I would be able to defend myself pretty well if someone would attack me, but now I feel very vulnerable when walking alone in some streets at night. It's not a nice feeling, and I'm glad it's not easy to see that I can't use my right arm if you don't know it.
Although that also gives unpleasant situations, like for example when I'm not able to hold the door open for someone else when carrying something in my left hand, and people think I do this because I'm rude or something.
And since I'm right-handed, there are many other things I've got troubles with.(writing for example) I'm only 21 years old, and feel like this is too young to get handicapped for the rest of my life.
My arm is also in constant pain, and I haven't found any medications yet sufficient to take it away.(the pain isn't as important to me as the lack of usability of my arm)
I'm not the kind of person that talks a lot about his feelings, but doing this on this forum goes a bit easier(even while not in my mother language). I'm not writing this to ask for your sympathy here(would appreciate it though), but would like to know if other people have dealt with a similar situation before. And would like to hear any tips you got of handling this. And maybe how to wait for the results tomorrow. I'm afraid I wont get much sleep this night.
I want to know if people succeeded in training their left hand to do the same thing as their right hand could(or the other way around if you were left handed of course),
and if you know a fun sport that can be done with the use of only one arm, I would love to hear that.
I run these days to keep me into shape, but I don't really like doing that. And biking hurts a lot on my shoulder(it 'shocks' too much, and I have to keep my arm in the same position for a long time). I'm also not good with foot-ball sports(soccer and the like).
Thanks for taking the time reading this. As this is quite a big forum, I hope there are people here that can share some experience in situations like this.
I don't think I've said this before on this forum, so I will give you guys a short introduction to what has happened to me.
I've had a bike accident in December, and went on surgery a week later. Since then, I cant use my right shoulder, and with it I've lost the use of pretty much my whole right arm for normal activities.
After the operations, doctors told me I would regain the full use of my right shoulder in about 6 months.
But last Friday, I got some pretty bad news. They discovered that an important nerve in my shoulder(for the ones who know it, it's the "axillary nerve", controlling the Deltoid and Teres minor muscles) isn't working, and heavy damaged by the operation. I already knew the operation didn't go as planned and went to a different doctor after I realized that, but didn't know it went that bad. They said the chances of healing up are very small, and there is a big chance I will never be able to use my right shoulder again like it should.
There is a small chance the nerve is squeezed by the bad operation, and only in that case there would be a chance of fixing it with an operation. Tomorrow I will have a special scan of my shoulder that will be able to tell if that's the case. Although they said the chance isn't big, I am telling myself that this is the case, and that there is still hope. But I have big problems waiting for the scan and its results, and feel really bad by it. I'm afraid of bad news, but am hoping it will turn out good in the same time. I never felt "depressed" before, but the uncertainty feels very bad, and I don't function normally these past days.
I used to do lots of sports(bouldering, rock climbing, biking, ...) before, but now the only sport I can still do is running(and I find that boring). Even typing this on my computer hurts my shoulder, but in the last half year I've learned to live with it, with the thought it would only be temporary. I will probably loose this year at hight school because I'm not able to work for my exams as I could in the previous years.
It also gives me other problems like not being able to control the gearbox of the car properly, not being able to carry things with two hands, ...
I even got afraid of heights, something that I never experienced before. When standing next to a depth, I know that I won't be able to stop myself from falling with one arm. I was also confident in myself before, and knew that I would be able to defend myself pretty well if someone would attack me, but now I feel very vulnerable when walking alone in some streets at night. It's not a nice feeling, and I'm glad it's not easy to see that I can't use my right arm if you don't know it.
Although that also gives unpleasant situations, like for example when I'm not able to hold the door open for someone else when carrying something in my left hand, and people think I do this because I'm rude or something.
And since I'm right-handed, there are many other things I've got troubles with.(writing for example) I'm only 21 years old, and feel like this is too young to get handicapped for the rest of my life.
My arm is also in constant pain, and I haven't found any medications yet sufficient to take it away.(the pain isn't as important to me as the lack of usability of my arm)
I'm not the kind of person that talks a lot about his feelings, but doing this on this forum goes a bit easier(even while not in my mother language). I'm not writing this to ask for your sympathy here(would appreciate it though), but would like to know if other people have dealt with a similar situation before. And would like to hear any tips you got of handling this. And maybe how to wait for the results tomorrow. I'm afraid I wont get much sleep this night.
I want to know if people succeeded in training their left hand to do the same thing as their right hand could(or the other way around if you were left handed of course),
and if you know a fun sport that can be done with the use of only one arm, I would love to hear that.
I run these days to keep me into shape, but I don't really like doing that. And biking hurts a lot on my shoulder(it 'shocks' too much, and I have to keep my arm in the same position for a long time). I'm also not good with foot-ball sports(soccer and the like).
Thanks for taking the time reading this. As this is quite a big forum, I hope there are people here that can share some experience in situations like this.
) that although I planned/dreamed on competing in bigger competitions before my accident, I will probable never be able to do any bouldering again.
