I've been a BF member for nearly two years. Last week I buried my older brother, 40 years old. This will sound stupid, but I held the CR mnandi for days and used it to cut the roses for his funeral. My fingers rubbed the wood for days and I opened the blade hundreds of times to relieve my own tensions. It was just nice to look at the wood and it was smooth to open. Its priceless and I still find myself holding it to handle the stress. I know its just a knife, its what I needed to handle during some tough times. Cherish the time with your family...