Kazeryu said:
Lately it seems like I've been trying to dig myself a deep hole and crawl into it. -Ross.
A young warrior was captured and tossed into a deep hole. His enemies began throwing in scoops of dirt, thinking to bury him alive. At first the warrior was terrified and filled with despair, surely he was going to die, and there were none who would come to his aid, no help to be had. But then he thought about his family, his friends, his homeland, all the things he loved and had sworn to defend. He had a purpose, and a man with a purpose does not die, helpless and afraid, at the bottom of a hole. He chose instead to live, so he calmed his fears, steeled his resolve, and as each scoop of dirt fell on him, he shook it off and stamped it under his feet. Scoop by scoop, inch by inch, he began to rise up out of the hole. His enemies, seeing him thus rising from the earth, fled in terror, thinking a man who could not be killed must surely be no mortal man, but a spirit. The warrior went on to live a long life, and fulfilled his purpose with courage and honor. But, he never forgot that dreadful day, or the terrible ordeal he'd survived, survived because of something so simple as a choice.
Smoke and prayers headed your way Ross, but if you already know you're the problem, then you already know you're the solution.
Sarge