I feel you. I inherited a 2015 2-blade 77 Barlow in Sambar stag, when my father-in-law passed away a few years ago. It’s gorgeous beyond belief. It still sits tucked away in its tube, never used.
I’ve tried to carry it, but just can’t. It’s too beautiful. It’s absurdly valuable. Yet it’s useless, not being used at all. I’ve promised myself that it will be my retirement knife, where it’ll be the knife that I carry every day after I retire in 2 1/2 years. So it’s like an event knife, a ticking time bomb of knife awesomeness, destined to finally go off.
But why am I waiting until I retire? Does such a wonderful knife require a life changing event in order to become “the knife”? Or could I possibly just put it in my pocket one day, out of nowhere, and start letting that patina develop. Am I just waiting for a few years, to make sure that something even better and more perfect doesn’t come around in the meantime?