Alright, gotta throw my dollar 2 fifty four cents in here. It does sound like you are young Twitchy. Youth is wonderful, experience is a confident wonderful. I am on my 3rd marriage. My first was real pretty, but also needed attention from other guys. It was hell, always wondering what she was doing when I was at work and school. It was tough because she was so bent on gettin married. I thought how great it was to have a pretty girl want to marry me. Pretty dumb, I was. It galvanized me against women. Once divorced, I did ok, and kept the house. I drank alot and treated women like objects, did not go sensitive at all. Loved my beer more than them. I became a challenge to them. I swung the pendulum the other way. I was not the dork with the flowers impressing the parents anymore. I was acting like the George Costanza opposite guy. Treat them like crap, and they go nuts over you. I had fun for awhile, but it was empty. You cannot go home again with this one. She will come back to you, looking as good as she can, knowing what turns your crank shaft. It would be best to not try it. There is another one there. Find a woman who has a good relationship with her family. It sounds cornball, but it really means alot. Having a woman who looks up to you, and finds qualities in you that you do not feel are valuable can bring you to be the best that you can be. Right now, you are co-dependent on wanting her to want you. You have better odds of herding cats with a rake. Another woman will take the edge off. Do not rush into anything. Women can sense clingy desperation and makes them resentful that they chose a needy man. Stay golden pony boy! Stay golden.