Steel Ghost,
Great honesty there, and I have gone through the same feelings.
A friend of mine, who a year and a half ago was 350+ pounds, stuck in a wheelchair had, and does have, the same sentiments as you have. He has had a lifelong experience with polio of one of his legs. The last time I saw him we were discussing the lack of equipment for cardio workouts for people who don't have typical range of motion.
He revealed in a phone call to me he is now 215 pounds, and is starting a weight training program for his upper body. He attributes his weight loss to portion control, he eats the same as he always has and as often, just less of it. He is out of his chair most of the time. His motivation to exercise is still low, but his overall attitude about life in general has risen considerably.
For myself, I am now in California, after transferring from China, to Florida, and then to San Diego. I will be here for another week or so, and the hotel I am in is on top of a hill. Every day I walk down the fairly steep hill and up twice a day, a total of two measured miles. After reading the updates on this post, I will add a longer loop, I have not measured it in time or distance yet, but it is an unavoidable up and down ring around a hill. I have not bought a flexible measuring tape yet, but intend too. The brief feeling of "getting it" I have a couple of weeks ago is gone, my motivation minimal, and that is attributed to the jet lag and natural desire for the path of least resistance. I trod onward, and thank you guys for the inspirational boost.