Finding Yourself Again Is A Journey

Never been married. Never had kids. Life has meandered me pretty far from you life experience wise, but your story brought a tear to my eye. I've been following you and Alayna's adventures here on the forums for a few years now, so I know you guys have a strong bond. Keep your chin up.
 
Brian, I'm keeping you in my prayers. You are a strong person with a wonderful daughter; pray and you will make the best decisions for everyone!

-Will
 
Hang in there Brian. Everything happens for a reason, although we may not know that reason, until we're further on down the road. I see some Ultimate Feasts in some of those pics! Chin up my friend, best of luck to yall, and everything will work itself out!
 
DYSPHORIC JOY said:
Sorry to hear this Brian. As per your usual approach, you have prioritized the details and maintained focus on the one who is important. Good luck to you and Alayna.
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plue said:
Never been married. Never had kids. Life has meandered me pretty far from you life experience wise, but your story brought a tear to my eye. I've been following you and Alayna's adventures here on the forums for a few years now, so I know you guys have a strong bond. Keep your chin up.
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willic said:
Brian, I'm keeping you in my prayers. You are a strong person with a wonderful daughter; pray and you will make the best decisions for everyone!

-Will
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91bravo said:
Hang in there Brian. Everything happens for a reason, although we may not know that reason, until we're further on down the road. I see some Ultimate Feasts in some of those pics! Chin up my friend, best of luck to yall, and everything will work itself out!
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Thanks guys. Life always seems to sort itself out the way it's supposed to go if you pay attention and follow the signs. All stories have chapters, and as ever one chapter has to end in order for a new one to begin. It was an unexpected change yes, but so far it's all working out fine. This past month has been an amazing time for me. It forced me to look at so many things more objectively. A very dear friend pointed out to me that this time period in my life gives me the opportunity to in many ways start fresh with a clean slate of sorts. I spent days walking, thinking, and meditating on just what that really entailed. I concluded that if I did indeed have that opportunity, then by damn I am not going to waste it, That for once in my adult life, I am going to go about something the right way. I have finally processed so much of my life that had been locked in a state of limbo a very long time. Some of those things had been suppressed and repressed, and having negative effects on my life since my teen years, and never were processed out when I came off the streets. In a way it has been somewhat like exercising demons..but a lot of changes started happening organically all on their own a couple of weeks ago. I stopped certain cravings all together, I started a better approach to my diet that is more like where I was at before I hit the streets at age 16.I have gone through a serious reduction in fats and sugars intake that only came into my life in my time on the streets because of low cost and being easily accessible when I was just trying to stay alive. Other habits that developed immediately after as a result of so long of being on the outside of the glass looking in, that when I did get to the inside I approached it all wrong. I've lost weight and developed better skin tone and muscle definition. I have done a major reduction in caffeine, because I have more energy naturally now that I am not constantly being drained by the depressing thoughts in my subconscious, I haven't smoked cigarettes since last Thursday and have had zero cravings even when I was hanging out and talking to people who were smoking. I'm emotionally and psychologically healthier than I have been in years, I seriously haven't felt this good in decades. Now Lisa has seen the successes I'm having and quit smoking two days ago herself. We make great friends, we really do, but we really were not meant to be husband and wife for the long haul, too many differences between us. And trying to stifle those and raise Alayna because we needed to do that right was literally killing both of us. Alayna is old enough to understand what is happening now, and the steps we are taking have improved all three of our lives. Thanks for the prayers and support everyone, but sympathy isn't necessary, what happened really did need to happen for all our sakes.
 
Great to hear that things are looking better Brian.

Quitting smoking is probably the best thing I ever did. Glad to know that you're off them as well. You will see the benefits straight away.
Keep eating healthy, try to stay fit and depression and negative thoughts tend to go away.
When you are feeling better and your mind is clear it is easier to make better choices and decisions.

Keep at it. Good luck and my best wishes [emoji106]
 
Hey Brian congratulations on taking huge steps in your life. Having experienced this in my own life It's good to know you've made changes for your life and your daughter!


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Hang in there Brian. Good to see you have a positive outlook and that you're both still friends.
 
Sorry to hear of your struggles Brian- will be thinking of you. I traveled a bit for work to Chattanooga a few years ago and I frequented that BlueWater place quite a bit. It was a comfortable place to have a beer and some decent food. Take care and stay positive- I am sure you will handle this with the same grace and careful attention that you have shown with all of your great posts and pictures here that you have truly blessed us all with.
 
Brian, just seeing this now. sorry to hear of your troubles. but, it sounds like you guys got a good plan, and it's good that you can talk it out like adults. where you're at ain't easy (been there), but it also isn't the end of the road. and you got a great kid.

wishing you love from vermont. you guys will be in my thoughts and prayers.

-todd
 
TPVT said:
Brian, just seeing this now. sorry to hear of your troubles. but, it sounds like you guys got a good plan, and it's good that you can talk it out like adults. where you're at ain't easy (been there), but it also isn't the end of the road. and you got a great kid.

wishing you love from vermont. you guys will be in my thoughts and prayers.

-todd
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Thanks Todd, it has my hands fuller than I'm used to, but so far we are doing it well. Alayna really is a great kid
 
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