Thanks, man, I'll give your method a whirl, believe it. I'm trying to grow up and take on responsibility. I'm not going to make excuses and say, 'well, he practically insulted me, after all I said about preferring to not hear from people who despise spiders'. I'll take the punch, roll with it, and keep running towards my goal, to be a better person. And if that means sucking up all the pride in the world, if that means staying still to heal my bruised ego while the opponent gloats in my face, then so be it. I know you mean well, Rick, so no matter what I perceived you said to me, however chiding and uncomplementary it sounded to my ears, I'm not going to attack you for it. And I'll do my best to improve myself further, so that there is less and less to criticize. For me, when I'm criticized, it is like the ultimate blow to my self esteem, because, while I don't do nearly enough, what little I do, I do to better myself for the betterment of others and their well being. So, its like getting stabbed in the back, its like biting the hand that feeds you, when people decide they don't like me and perpetuate insinuation and insult to me. I'm not going to say either, that Alberta Ed did indeed insult me, because I will never know the inner workings of his mind, I will never know what he thinks, and he probably is not telling anything to me. I scare people off easily on the internet, and in real life. Because I don't know what to do. It comes down to Asperger's, it comes down to that fundamental dysfunctional reading of social cues, of thinking someone is insulting you when they are truly messing with you, that makes me harder to approach then most. Its only the people who understand me just by looking at me, better than I understand myself, that extend the hand of friendship when I look so anxious *furious* that I would sooner bite their hand than shake it. And yet, it is also my fault. I do not try hard enough. I need to try harder. And, so we come full circle. I'm doing my best, but I'll definitely give it a try for you, Rick, okay? Cool, I'll see everyone later. Peace.