I need a hug.........

Well, I buried my grandmother today. It was very difficult. The worst was watching my dad and brother cry. Watching grown man cry is heartbreaking. After the service at the cemetery my uncle came over and sat next to me and told me that I was grandma's favorite because I was the only girl in the family. She apparently told him and her friend last Wednesday that she was so proud of me for being a good mom and so proud of the woman that I have become. All I want to do now is just hug her. I want to just turn back time and tell her I love her a hundred times over.

I feel so empty (as goofy as that sounds). I don't know what to do with myself. It scares me that this is what I have to look forward to, burying my mother, father, family members. I never realized how scary death is. Maybe I'm just thinking this way because of these past 4 days but it still scares me none the less.

Thank you for letting me get this out. You honestly don't know how much I appreciate all of your thoughts and prayers. God knows it helped me get through today. Thank you!

~Kassi~
 
Kassi,

When things get bad, I think about how glad I am I got the time I did. You've got lots of great memories, focus on them and keep your chin up.

It looks like you've plenty of support here (I don't think that will ever change), be strong, you'll get through it.
 
Death isn't the end Kassi, if it were then that would be scary. I wish I could tell you it gets easier but it doesn't. Remember the good times and go ahead and tell your grandmother you love her, she's still with you. Don't forget to tell everyone still with you that you love them too.
 
I just saw your post and wanted to say I am sorry for everything that you are going through. I know it is hard when you lose someone close to you. Take it from me......Things will get better in time. Keep your head up!!
 
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