Cripes, when I stopped writing yesterday I swore I was done.

It's not like I think I'm going to convince anyone one way or the other. This election is so polarized that those who have made up their minds ain't changing them for nothin. I think that's just fine. We are exceptionally lucky to live in a country where we can criticise our government without fear of being jailed or worse for it. (Not that Bush hasn't tried, right here in Des Moines; but the rest of the country made him and Ashcroft back way off real quick.)
For the record, I'll say this again: I'm a Republican and have voted pretty much along party lines all my lfe. I'm making an exception in this case though, because I don't think W is rational. I think he has his mind made up and come hell or high water he ain't changing it for nothin. Despite the facts. The truth is, principals on both sides of the divide can find "facts" to support their dogmas. It's hard to know what to trust.
But I've been reading
a lot since 9/11, in both conservative and liberal media, scientific journals, political journals, medical research, and on and on. I haven't selected what I've read based on who wrote it - in fact I've gone out of my way to read as much as I can on both sides of each issue. This is important. Too important to let my own emotions or voting history or religious faith impose a bias on my rational thinking. It's not been easy or comfortable. Often I feel less informed than more; the more I learn the more obvious it is I cannot learn enough to really know what is best. I'd hate to have W's job; and anyone who wants it is a total nutcase IMHO.
I'm going to address a couple of y'all's arguments, then I
really am going to shut up.
War in Iraq.
It is about oil. There weren't any terrorists in Iraq until we gave them a nice easy target. (Our own men and women; yes it's their job, and yes they've done a fantastic job - my heart and soul goes out to each soldier and I support each one with everything I have. Anyone who blames our troops for the war in Iraq risks getting their teeth knocked down their throat behind my hard and rightious fist.) Do we need Mideast oil? Yes, we do. Do I personally want to pay high prices to support our industrial complex running on expensive oil? Of course not. My argument has nothing to do with whether we need the oil, "deserve" it, how not having it would affect our lifestyles, or any of that. My issue is with the corrupt reasons behing the war in Iraq. It's not about terrorism; it's about oil and cronyism, unimaginable profits for a few good companies, and about some self-rightious neoconservative a$$wipe's (Wolfowitz) hardon for Saddam. I think Wolfowitz and his buddies led W down a glory road and W doesn't know how to look at it from another perspective; he'd have to admit what to him is weakness - that he made an error of judgement. (In the debate the other night one of the questions to Bush was to name three mistakes he'd made and what he would have done differently; he didn't answer the question in any way. He just stammered something about Iraq and waved the Flag. For just a moment there I had a little hope but he let me down again. That man is a dangerous child with no sense of the consequences of his acts.) Someone asked whether we should have pulled out of WWII and other wars; that's a good argument. Actually I don't think we'd better be pulling out of Iraq either, or we
will have terrorists coming for our families. We started it, we'd better mop it up. Thoroughly.
Afghanistan.
Afghanistan is rife with terrorists, the Taliban is not dead, warlords rule everywhere but Kabul. What the f#*%? We have about 16,000 troops in Afghanistan; maybe they are the point of the spear and the best we have. But as far as I can tell they're not being particularly effective in rooting out the real danger to America and western civilization. That's because 16,000 troops, however potent, are just not enough. Afghanistan is a very big place with some of the toughest terrian in the world. Any fight against terrorism would have been better served with all of our might concentrated on its greatest stronghold until it was sterilized. But there's no real economic incentive to be there and once our administration thought they had UBL on the run they went where the money is. Big mistake; if we don't get back in there and fix it we're going to pay for that one for a very long time. UBL has been marginalized but he and all of the other fanatics we've taken out of circulation have been replaced. Are they hiding in Afghanistan now? Who could know? We're being distracted by flash and glitter and rhetoric.
Logging.
I'll concede this one, for the most part. I've lived in both ancient and second growth forests and they're universally awesome. I don't know whether judicious logging of old growth trees has longterm value so I'll assume it does. My only concern, really, is who determines which and how much timber is culled? I don't have any faith in anyone who has an economic interest, making these decsions.
Abortion, gay "rights" and that whole emotional miasma.
Personally abortion, homosexuality, etc make me uncomfortable. Abortion for birth control particularly strikes me as something deeply wrong. But so what?
That's me. I will not assume the right to impose my morality on anyone and I know that our government does not have that right. We must not legislate morality or we risk becomming what we fight. Let's keep the Constitution and individual liberty at the front. I am totally aghast at Bush's desire to amend the Constitution to
curtail American freedom. At the same time I don't think the government has an obligation to support anyone's personal choices or lifestyle.
Corporate responsibility.
The current administration has bent over backwards to pander to corporate interests. To some degree this is why I'm a Republican; capitalism is what has made America wealthy and strong. Unfettered capitalism though, has only a single result: one company, and it's the government. We see this every day. Companies have ever more control over our culture and individuality. Employees assume a greater burden while corporate officers enjoy the financial benefit. The DOJ looks the other way when corporations commit criminal acts. Our legislators trade corporate benefits for political contributions. Of course it's always been this way but I've been watching the whole process spin out of control. I'd like to see lobbiests put out of work entirely; or maybe (in a dream world) only allowing lobbying for constituent's rights. This would put the NRA (I'm a life member) out of Washington - fine; let it do what only it can do, educate people about firearms. And so on. I'm sick to death of companies sucking me dry and delivering their vanilla culture like it's a blessing.
Healthcare.
Boy, what we have is sure broken. For my family medical deductibles will go up 300% in 2005. Because my wife is chronically ill we'll use it all. We are at risk of bankruptcy. And in 2006 they will triple again. We may lose everything. At the same time my company is enjoying record profitability. This just pisses me off. I don't think my own problems should be a model for reform but it makes me poignantly aware how corporate greed drives our culture. Do I think the government should step in and do something? I sure wish they would but again that's a personal thing. I cannot see this one from an objective view because my wife's wellbeing and our whole life is at stake. What I observe is members of the healthcare community reaping record profits while individual people suffer more. Bush's policies only serve businesses; making Medicare an HMO seems like a step backwards. I have a number of coworkers who live in Canada where they have socialized medicine. They say it doesn't work - that people wait, often too long, for medical services that we take for granted. And it's expensive! So I don't favor socialized medicine. What's the answer? I don't know. I want to kick someone's ass.
Bush.
You all know what I think of Bush; that he's nothing but a stuborn cowboy pandering to his buddies best interests, who thinks his own morality trumps the Constitution. After 9/11 I was euphoric with his strong position against terrorism. Too bad he got led astray into Iraq. The only comfort - if I can be so callous as to call it comfort - is that our enemies have a much easier target now in our troops than in our families. But they'd be as good a target in Afghanistan as they are in Iraq, and they'd be doing much more for our nation's security. One thing about Bush: we do know where he stands and can rely on what he's likely to do. To the extent anyone thinks he'll make the right decisions there could be no other choice who to vote for. But think who his decisions are "right" for.
Kerry.
Here's a man who actually
thinks about what he's doing. That has led him to adjust his position occasionally, and his detractors take this as weakness or indecisiveness. I don't see it that way; I'd rather the most powerful man on Earth be one to engage in rational thought and deliberation than one who'd lash out self righteously at anyone who poses a threat - or might some day. Kerry's sure a liberal and many of his ideas, however well intended, could not be implemented the way he's formed them. For one thing, we'd all have to pay for them with money, and people in general are so rooted in today's problems (as you've seen I am) that they won't make the hard longterm choices. At least Kerry is willing to think about the consequences of his ideas. You can say that our world is no place for hand-wringing and waffling; you are right. When push comes to shove I think Kerry's as willing to stomp on those who'd destroy our way of life as as Bush is. I hope so anyway. Because push has come to shove and this is no time to try to enlist the goodwill of countries like France, Russia and Germany who had an economic incentive in preventing the war in Iraq, or the UN who wants to be a liberal world government. Kerry says he won't let other countries push him around; I'm willing to give him the chance. Feeding someone a handful of nails and making them think it's ice cream is the heart of diplomacy. I think Kerry's the only one who might pull that off. Kerry understands our Constitution and will stand by it.
Bill, you are right.
What our country needs more than a change in its President is a change in its legislature. I am informed, and I voted accordingly. Over the last few years I've taken to writing my own reps, mostly about technology issues. I don't require that they agree with me, only that they listen to me. I used to get form responses; now they send letters that expressly address my concerns and they sign them themselves. Every voter should become involved in our government, every day. Hold our government responsible for its decisions. Let your legislators know that you are informed of their positions, and what yours are. Remind them that you vote. It's the only way we can continue to have the America that the Founders died for. If we let apathy and comfort put us to sleep we deserve what we get.
One great thing about this group is there's no apathy and no willingness to wallow in comfort or selfindulgence. I really respect and admire everyone who's taken the time to think about the issues we face. I'm thankful to be an American, and I'm thankful you all are too.