Enjoy if you can.
If you feel down, you aren't the only one. A lot of the merrymakers are just putting on a face for the outside world.
This is the darkest time of the year. Literally. That can lead to SAD - Seasonal Affective Disorder. It's for real. Look it up.
Families getting together put stress on you. Studies have shown that even good changes create stress. Too much stress makes you sick.
Not being with family can stress you.
If you have emotional problems bugging you, talk to someone about it. Just knowing someone else ( one heck of a lot as a matter of fact ) has similar feelings makes it easier to handle.
Suicide is most often a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It may end your pain but often devastates others you don't want to see hurt.
Christmas is a bitch for some people. It brings up memories, and it's a time to measure progress. For some people, they did everything right, and took it in the shorts anyway. Your company "downsized".
Besides, whomever said that everything and everyone was beautiful must have been smoking something besides tobacco.
Aunt Maude may be a witch, and everyone knows it. Uncle Pete should never have been paroled. And mothers lay guilt trips on children every day.
So turn on the phone answering machine, miss the problems everyone wants to get you mixed up in, and take care of yourself.
I don't know why I got off on this tangent, cause I'm not having a bad time this year. But I have had them in years past. Just my suicide prevention/crisis line training maybe.
Anyway, don't expect too much and if things go better than you thought, enjoy.