that's quite a story T. death is a "funny" thing. I remember when i was about 6-7, my grandfather died. my dad's dad. now, my dad was a tough guy. he grew up in a mill town...football player...fought for fun...7 broken noses, etc, etc. so, even as a child...i heard stories. his dad was the same way. but kind. a kind man. a family man.
i remember being at the funeral and looking up at my dad and seeing him just bawling. my mom too. i loved my grampa. but, i didn't cry. i just couldn't fathom my dad crying. he was my super hero. so, i crawled up on his lap and grabbed his hand...and my moms hand...to see if i could squeeze it hard enough to make it all better. it didn't work.
years later. a decade. i was awake one night in bed. i thought back to that time. i thought of my grampa and realized i never even shed any tears. i let it all go. the tears came.
this might have been after an acquaintance died in high school. he was a friend of friends. these friends were stereotypical late 80's "punks." crazy hair. crazy tattoos. even in high school. hard core. bad ass. well...not that day. again...at the funeral, i saw these same guys (that would beat you down) crying like babies. it really struck me. death is a "funny" thing.
i could go on. but, i've said enough. this is your story. but, i'll tell ya...you got me thinking. thanks for the words.
cheers to your dad.