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I just got a call a little while ago that a long lost cousin who was found again walked West today.
Pinkie was a beautiful little girl child who lived as rough a life as I have and gave tit for tat.
Pinkie surely didn't deserve many of the things that came her way even if, like me, she did deserve a lot of them.
Karma in whatever form or whatever name you wish to call it does 'happen.'
I knew right after I had found her again about 4 years ago after a long time, maybe longer than 40 years, that she had sang her death song and was waiting for the right time to begin her star journey. Much too dayumed long for family to be apart no matter how close or far apart the ties are.
Pinkie is one of my maternal cousins, didn't have too many of them.
We still had that closeness that kids related to one another develop quickly when they come together to play.
And that pleases me to no end!!!!!!!
Kinda funny thing since we had just been talking here in our forum about smoking tobacco, and the lack of, or benefits, thereof.
Pinkie absolutely smoked herself to death. Whan I 1st met up with Pinkie after all the years I wasn't smoking at the time. I was apalled at the amount of cigarettes that girl smoked, literally 'One After Another'!!!!!!!! Pinkie had not just one or two lighters laying about, but amazingly dozens of them. There were 3-5 on every table or nearby flat place that would hold them.
I didn't preach at her and I don't regret that. Preaching would have just pissed Pinkie off and neither of us have enough bio family to loose any of them by doing something that stupid.
And that's one of the reasons I didn't get back to see Pinkie much. When I don't smoke cigarette smoke makes me really sick when I'm around 'that' much of it.
I got an e-mail from Pinkie just a couple or so months back telling me she was moving in with her son and daughter-in-law.
I knew then that Pinkie's time was short, but I wasn't quite expecting it right after the 1st main holiday of this time of the year, but somewhere in between them.
Karma evidently wasn't quite right for us to get too close, but I do wish now that I would've tried a bit harder to get over to see Pinkie more often than I did.
She lived alone as to what the average person could see out in the Osage Hills where there's not a lot of people, but are many, many spirits. Pinkie could feel the spirits around her and knew that they were friendly and were kindred.
I did get to bless Pinkie and her place off and I think that was one of the things Pinkie had been waiting on. And sometimes, just sometimes hours can be spent in the prescence of another in mere minutes and few words spoken can mean tomes. Pinkie and me were like that.
We also gave each other some old family pix the other didn't have, not much of them around either.
I'm proud of that and proud of what time we had. Though I think Pinkie would have liked more time as I would have to get to know one another better, but what we had was enough and the Great Mystery and the Old Ones permitted us that.
I'm going to miss Pinkie.
I would ask that prayers be sent up for her kids that Pinkie moved in with.
And the ones who Pinkie loved and was loved by down here in Oklahoma. I know it had/has to hurt her son to see his mom smoke herself to death and especially without understanding why.
These days us ndns have to take different measures than we once did.
It used to be easy when one was old and tired to just walk into the woods and give our breath back to the One who gave it to us.
Pinkie had/has much more courage than I do to give up her breath that way.
I couldn't do it.....Not like that.......
Thanks for listening. This forum is really like having, well y'all know..........
Pinkie was a beautiful little girl child who lived as rough a life as I have and gave tit for tat.
Pinkie surely didn't deserve many of the things that came her way even if, like me, she did deserve a lot of them.
Karma in whatever form or whatever name you wish to call it does 'happen.'
I knew right after I had found her again about 4 years ago after a long time, maybe longer than 40 years, that she had sang her death song and was waiting for the right time to begin her star journey. Much too dayumed long for family to be apart no matter how close or far apart the ties are.
Pinkie is one of my maternal cousins, didn't have too many of them.
We still had that closeness that kids related to one another develop quickly when they come together to play.
And that pleases me to no end!!!!!!!
Kinda funny thing since we had just been talking here in our forum about smoking tobacco, and the lack of, or benefits, thereof.
Pinkie absolutely smoked herself to death. Whan I 1st met up with Pinkie after all the years I wasn't smoking at the time. I was apalled at the amount of cigarettes that girl smoked, literally 'One After Another'!!!!!!!! Pinkie had not just one or two lighters laying about, but amazingly dozens of them. There were 3-5 on every table or nearby flat place that would hold them.
I didn't preach at her and I don't regret that. Preaching would have just pissed Pinkie off and neither of us have enough bio family to loose any of them by doing something that stupid.
And that's one of the reasons I didn't get back to see Pinkie much. When I don't smoke cigarette smoke makes me really sick when I'm around 'that' much of it.
I got an e-mail from Pinkie just a couple or so months back telling me she was moving in with her son and daughter-in-law.
I knew then that Pinkie's time was short, but I wasn't quite expecting it right after the 1st main holiday of this time of the year, but somewhere in between them.
Karma evidently wasn't quite right for us to get too close, but I do wish now that I would've tried a bit harder to get over to see Pinkie more often than I did.
She lived alone as to what the average person could see out in the Osage Hills where there's not a lot of people, but are many, many spirits. Pinkie could feel the spirits around her and knew that they were friendly and were kindred.
I did get to bless Pinkie and her place off and I think that was one of the things Pinkie had been waiting on. And sometimes, just sometimes hours can be spent in the prescence of another in mere minutes and few words spoken can mean tomes. Pinkie and me were like that.
We also gave each other some old family pix the other didn't have, not much of them around either.
I'm proud of that and proud of what time we had. Though I think Pinkie would have liked more time as I would have to get to know one another better, but what we had was enough and the Great Mystery and the Old Ones permitted us that.
I'm going to miss Pinkie.
I would ask that prayers be sent up for her kids that Pinkie moved in with.
And the ones who Pinkie loved and was loved by down here in Oklahoma. I know it had/has to hurt her son to see his mom smoke herself to death and especially without understanding why.
These days us ndns have to take different measures than we once did.
It used to be easy when one was old and tired to just walk into the woods and give our breath back to the One who gave it to us.
Pinkie had/has much more courage than I do to give up her breath that way.
I couldn't do it.....Not like that.......
Thanks for listening. This forum is really like having, well y'all know..........
