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tarmix101

tarmix101

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I'm an alcoholic. I've been kidding my self for months of fairly heavy drinking that I could quit anytime.

Well today I took some much needed vacation time. On day one of successful sobriety the withdrawals started and I don't think I was fully prepared for what was to come. I had a massive anxiety attack, and checked myself in the the ER.

Docs said besides an elevated hart rate, they saw no reason to keep me, and prescribed my a medication like Valium to curb my symptoms. I don't think I'm going to take it. Don't want to trade one addiction for another.

The funny thing is, I hid it so well, my family had no idea. My wife suspected however, and aways said "you drink a little to much you know".

After coming clean with my entire family I felt a huge relief. Just getting it out in the open was very empowering.

Hand to God....... I'm never taking another drink!!!!!

All I need to do is look at them to remind me why.

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Any words of wisdom are much appreciated. I start AA next week.
 
You have done a great thing by recognising your failings and taking steps to correct them. All the best mate and I am sure you will have the strength to pull through!
 
I have been in recovery for 19+ years!! I detox in the hospital, then went to a 28 day rehab. After rehab, I went to AA, and I have been sober ever since!!! It is one day at a time, or in the beginning it was a minute at a time. Prayers out to you!!
 
Very brave and courageous of you. THose little girls deserve a father who is not drunk. Please join AA. I am proud of your achievment so far. Do not ever give up.

Ren
 
You're doing the right thing. You are very courageous facing your problem head on. Good for you! :thumbup:
 
Smoke and prayers sent!

I had an uncle that was an alcoholic, and he had a tough row to hoe, but he did not have the inpiration you do- those children. He was a batchelor. I hope you have good luck with AA, and if things look like their getting a bit iffy some night, look at those beautifull children of yours and tell yourself they are counting on you. It worked for a friend of mine who has been sober now for almost 22 years. Hoppy told me that when he would start to fall off the wagon he would look at his kids and ask himself does he want to let them down. Then he would call one of his AA brothers and they would get through it.

The biggest thing to remember is you are not alone. Many others have this disease, and with the help and support of family and friends can fight it. Don't be ashamed to lean on your loved ones to help, they will want to help. You have already taken the first step in facing the problem, and that a huge step.


Trust your self to the AA, they are a good group that can help. I'll be praying for you.
 
Your family is your rock and your anchor. The Good Lord is your Shore. Smooth sailing, Brother.
 
I come from a long line of alcoholics......dead alcoholics. you're making the right choice. best of luck and stay strong.
 
I'm glad that you admitted your problem before hitting bottom and losing your family and more. Smoke and prayers, join AA and always remember "One day at a time"
 
tarmix101 said:
All I need to do is look at them to remind me why.
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Absolutely, that is a big reason why. About 9 years clean and sober for me. Looking back at it today my biggest regret is that I did not do it sooner. I don't have any words of wisdom other than you can do it. You will be glad you did, trust me. Smoke and prayers sent.
 
Remember- bad habits were made to be broken. From another who has watched too many friends and family succumb to their demons I commend you for seeing a problem and wanting to help change things. If you want to change, you will- no matter how hard it is. Seeing those faces and realizing if nothing else you are extending the time you can see them is reason enough.

Be strong and you will be happy in the end!
 
Thank you all!!!!

Last night was a but rough, but today is much better. I'm not taking the meds they prescribed, and I start AA later this week.

All your prayers are well received and DEEPLY appreciated.

Eddited to add:

Typing this out (which took forever because I was shaking so badly) and your generous responses and prayers were a HUGE part of getting me through my first night.
 
I want to congratulate you in seeing the problem and taking these First Steps to a New life.

The Serenity Prayer
God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.


Living one day at a time;
Enjoying one moment at a time;
Accepting hardships as the pathway to peace;
Taking, as He did, this sinful world
as it is, not as I would have it;
Trusting that He will make all things right
if I surrender to His Will;
That I may be reasonably happy in this life
and supremely happy with Him
Forever in the next.
Amen.

--Reinhold Niebuhr


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You're a brave man to face things as they are. I'm sure you will find the road ahead tough but you are in the right direction nevertheless.

Your children, family and friends are good reason for changing but doing it for your own peace and quiet is just as important. People respect alcoholics who are trying to shake off their daemon but people never respect drunks. Good luck to you sir!
 
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