The roller coaster. I learned to hate the roller coaster of waiting, encouragement, fear, sorrow, more waiting, an encouraging sign, test results, waiting some more, and on it goes...
I learned to hate the roller coaster but also understand it. This awful waiting is so, so hard, isn't it? But I learned that all that time spent waiting is necessary - even if you don't think it is - for your mom to sort out her feelings, and for you to sort out yours. Try not to hate the roller coaster and just accept it as time needed for everyone involved.
With me it was my dad. The situation with my him didn't end well, but a similar one with my mom did. I pray that your mother's situation turns out like my mom's. She's 81 and still going strong.
Please write and let the folks here know when you want to talk. And don't feel guilty if you don't feel like talking.
I hope you know that Bryan and I will include you and your precious mom in our prayers often.