Waved Sebenza update

Charlie Mike said:
Thanks Colin. I gotta throw this pic up here cuz people are noticing that I'm looking good. I'm pushing 185 lbs and never felt better!

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You look very happy.
Congratulations Charlie Mike. :-)
 
Congrats Charlie Mike, you're looking much healthier than pics from earlier this year. Good on ya!
 
Drug/alcohol addiction is one of those things you think nobody will pick up on. The elephant in the room if you will. I was sober for 5 months before I got married. I was going to meetings, had a sponsor, all that jazz. There's a reason why they tell you no new relationships in early sobriety. After she lost her job, meth crept back into my life. I'm pretty sure (looking back on things) that y'all had an idea I was back on the shit. We battled with it for several years and in the end, for both our sanity, divorce was the only way out. We couldn't get clean under the same roof. It was more a mutual drug use partnership than a marriage. It was my form of escape from a truly depressing state of existence. Either that or suicide which had been appealing to me at times.

On a positive note, I came out of this learning that when they say "suggestion", it is used in the severity of "we suggest you shouldn't put a loaded gun in your mouth and squeeze the trigger"!

As for that filthy whore Crystal, I said my goodbyes 2-1-13. I'm admitting all this because I know some of you knew but maybe didn't know if you should say anything to me about it.
 
Congratulations Brother!!!! Keep on Keeping on, The first 6 months was the hardest for me , hell the first year to be honest with you, Glad you have support too, I have no doubt in my mind I would of relapsed by now if it wasn't for my support system, I'm still just a phone call away bro anytime day or night. Another thing is some people are not gonna understand because they've never been there, If they judge you screw em, I know I've been judged by many many people for my actions, and yea it bothered me at first but then I realized I'm getting clean for me, screw what everybody else thinks. Once I got that in my head I was gtg... If they can't support you and accept you for who you are and what you've done cut them outta your life bro, you don't need em.
 
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Allen R. said:
Congratulations Brother!!!! Keep on Keeping on, The first 6 months was the hardest for me , hell the first year to be honest with you, Glad you have support too, I have no doubt in my mind I would of relapsed by now if it wasn't for my support system, I'm still just a phone call away bro anytime day or night. Another thing is some people are not gonna understand because they've never been there, If they judge you screw em, I know I've been judged by many many people for my actions, and yea it bothered me at first but then I realized I'm getting clean for me, screw what everybody else thinks. Once I got that in my head I was gtg... If they can't support you and accept you for who you are and what you've done cut them outta your life bro, you don't need em.
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That's what I've come to realize. Early on, I used the factory reset on my phone. Now I can say I don't associate with anyone who gets loaded. I'm surrounding myself with people who piss excellence.
 
Charlie Mike said:
That's what I've come to realize. Early on, I used the factory reset on my phone. Now I can say I don't associate with anyone who gets loaded. I'm surrounding myself with people who piss excellence.
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It bothered me for about a year to see someone high on pills, I could spot them out of a crowd dude, and I would actually start to crave them myself, Eventually seeing people high didn't make me crave anything, it made me realize how stupid I looked when i was high. I had to cut ties with basically everyone of my friends I had for years, but I had family, and a few "true friends" that ditched me when I got strung out , but came back to me when they found out I had some clean time under my belt. It gets easier I promise you. Its a great feeling too knowing that you can take a piss test anytime and pass anytime, And the extra cash you have from not buying dope ain't too bad either. I still haft to take my PTSD meds, (Thanks Uncle Sam!) , They offered me pain meds the other day, after they just cut me off cold turkey before , and I told them not just no but HELL NO, that I will deal with the pain I have rather than go back to the life I used to live.
 
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Jim malone said:
Congrats and can't wait to see the knife. Does the origional raffle still counts?
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I'll start a new thread for the contest when the knife is completed.
 
I'm not going to say you looked *bad* before, but you look good, happy, and much healthier now.

Don't quit quitting. A day will come when you look back in awe and realize how bad it was (and you just couldn't realize it at the time), and how much better life is.
 
Allen R. said:
I still haft to take my PTSD meds, (Thanks Uncle Sam!) , They offered me pain meds the other day, after they just cut me off cold turkey before , and I told them not just no but HELL NO, that I will deal with the pain I have rather than go back to the life I used to live.
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Me too. Next time I see my primary care Dr. I'm gonna have her put alcohol under the allergies heading. They have me on 1000mg of Depakote (I'm not bipolar but they say it helps PTSD), 3mg Prazosin, and 50mg Trazadone.
 
Charlie Mike said:
Me too. Next time I see my primary care Dr. I'm gonna have her put alcohol under the allergies heading. They have me on 1000mg of Depakote (I'm not bipolar but they say it helps PTSD), 3mg Prazosin, and 50mg Trazadone.
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The klonopin takes care of most everything for me, I know I know it's a narcotic, but my wife and family have all threatened to cut ties with me if I come off of it apparently I'm a paranoid nut job without it, I don't think think I'm paranoid though, they really are out to get me...LOL
 
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