Were does it end?

Just when you think it has ended..it really never did or will. Please help me.
 
It will never end for me but I learn more and more what knives I'm actually going to carry and what knives I'm just going to admire and show off. Only buying they ones I know are going to get real use. I'm going on a real break soon from buying knives, right after Bark River drops the essential 2. Or maybe after Shot next year, or maybe the year after but soon.
 
afishhunter said:
"When does it end?"

A serious question deserves a serious answer:

It ends the day after you die.
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That is the cold truth we cant escape and when I die I want to be buried with my knifes so if I get resumed by some future archaeologist's they will think I was a great warrior king.
 
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I started my collection in June 2017. You won’t believe this but this picture was taken in February 2018.

When I get into something I go nuts, I have a very addictive personality.

It seems like a terrible hobby but knives actually helped me a lot by giving me something to be passionate about and put my interest in away from drugs.

I was addicted for heroin and fentanyl for 8 years. Since I was 14 in high school. It progressed when I got a very well paying job and things really took a turn for the worst.

You see it isn’t the typical “junkie” looking people that do the most drugs. It is the people who work regular white collar jobs every day who can actually afford it that end up doing the most.

At my peak I was supporting a $350 per day addiction. I thought I would never quit and so many times thought of committing suicide because I really thought there was no end to it.

My performance at work started to drop, and I eventually lost that job because of my drug addiction.

I lost my apartment, and I lost my Mercedes which I had bought brand new, which was the first big thing I purchased in my adult life which had very much sentimental value to me as it was a car I had wanted for a really long time and had worked very very hard to earn.

I was really deep in the hole.

Then one day, I still remember that day very vividly, the turning point, was when I was hanging out with two of my best friends. We went to Canadian Tire (like Walmart in the States) because they wanted to get some knives and bear spray.

I was never particularly interested in knives before then, but when we went to look at them, an itch just hit me and I just had to buy one.

My first knife was a Smith & Wesson Tanto fixed blade, it was like $40. At that point I didn’t know S&w knives were pos, but From that day on I absolutely fell in love with knives.

I started researching online all about knives and what knives I wanted to get. That really motivated me to get back up and get my life back on track again and make money to buy these knives, lol.

My previous job I had, I was very very VERY lucky to land that job with the salary it paid. It was like winning the lottery.

I knew I was never going to have an opportunity like that again. But next thing you know, BOOM my best friend’s cousin had a company and was willing to hire me to do relatively the exact same thing and with around the same salary.

I am really fortunate and every day of my life I thank my friends cousin for giving me that opportunity.

To have fallen so far and be so deep in a hole with nothing and lost everything, and then have someone reach their hand out and pick you up, to have him give me an opportunity when I had nothing, I am eternally grateful.

He knew it was because of my drug addiction that I lost my previous job. And so he needed me to commit to quitting in order for me to work for him.

It wasn’t easy but having lost everything I was so scared to ever do drugs again. It still took a ton of effort, quitting from doing 17-18 points of fentanyl a day (for reference someone starting out would probably do a quarter to half a point)

But having this new passion in knives did make it a lot easier for me. I was spending around $300 every day on drugs before, so what I would do is, I would ask myself, did I want to spend $50 on drugs or this knife? And I would go out and buy the knife for the day and that would satisfy me. And I would still spend the other $250 on drugs.

But as it progressed I would just keep allocating more and more money towards knives instead of drugs, until I didn’t need to buy drugs anymore.

And then I would sort of try to limit my knife spendings.

But that didn’t work out very well either as every paycheck I would just go to the local knife store and blow all my money away. I have just accepted that I have a very addictive personality, but I guess buying knives beats drugs any day of the week.

But yea that’s my story
 
wow! that is a hell of a story BloodyDonnie and a feel good story at that. It doesn't matter how you shake the habit it only matters if you kick it and it sounds like you have and in a constructive way at that. I wish I could have thought of something like that to help a friend of mine, your method probably would have worked for him being the outdoors man he was.
Thanks for sharing that, sincerely.
 
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