I am real sorry for your loss JurT. I really feel for you.
I currently only have two dogs. But, I have had a few cats in the past.
One in particular was about the best pet I have ever had. He was VERY cool and one of my best buds.
I had to put him to sleep about 4 years ago and still miss him on a regular basis.
That was one of the most miserable times in my life. But, things do get better.
Hopefully, things will get better for you as well. My two dogs are great and help.
We got our two dogs a few months after we had to put my cat to sleep. My wife had been wanting a dog (ended up being two) for quite a few years, but the situation and timing just had not been right.
We finally did. As they get older, the bond keeps getting stronger. They are very good pets too.
But, I will never forget that one.
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