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I dont know if I should post this, I am just talking aloud and need to....talk. I went kayaking today and was on flat water. My father an G/F and I went, they were on the shore about 200 yards around a bend from me when I made a mistake and rolled my Kayak (I didnt get a full breathe in, in fact I said oh crap and breathed out). At first I was ok, I reached for my loop on the sprayskirt and tried to pull back, only the loop was under the skirt and I didnt notice it when I had left shore. I tried and tried and eventually I pulled hard and back and accidently breathed in....everything went black for I dont know how long. I remember coming too and seeing the sun and feeling very calm then knowing if I didnt do something I was going to drown. I tried to kick out the skirt but my knee's wouldnt come up I grabbed all around and tried to pull myself up....things started to get hazy and I know I screamed underwater, everything seemed blurry. I tried one last time on the side of the skirt and it popped free.
I dont remember getting out of the kayak only coming to the surface and taking the greatest breath of my life even though I could only partially breathe as my longs felt full. I could stand in the middle of the river and took a few breathes and was forced to cough up water and vomit. I made it to shore and tried to empty the kayak but couldnt manage my hands to do the work. I collapsed on shore for I dont know how long and managed myself to empty the kayak and eventually work my way back. I did get back into the Kayak and paddled to them and got to shore.
I did go to the ER and they said I was very lucky and had a "near drowning experience". I dont think my father and g/f understand....I still dont feel right, cant explain it. I felt so alone....more alone than I have ever felt in my entire life knowing that no one could save me. I just kept thinking "I am going to die here if I dont fight until I cant fight anymore...I cant go like this". The strangest thing is the silence.....dead silence, there is no sound but your thoughts and its earily peaceful and scary at the same time.
If the mods need to move this its ok. I just needed to write something, I am still not right from it and I am supposed to be watched for a day to make sure pnuemonia does not set in. I hope this doesnt sound like whining.
Thanks for listening.
I dont remember getting out of the kayak only coming to the surface and taking the greatest breath of my life even though I could only partially breathe as my longs felt full. I could stand in the middle of the river and took a few breathes and was forced to cough up water and vomit. I made it to shore and tried to empty the kayak but couldnt manage my hands to do the work. I collapsed on shore for I dont know how long and managed myself to empty the kayak and eventually work my way back. I did get back into the Kayak and paddled to them and got to shore.
I did go to the ER and they said I was very lucky and had a "near drowning experience". I dont think my father and g/f understand....I still dont feel right, cant explain it. I felt so alone....more alone than I have ever felt in my entire life knowing that no one could save me. I just kept thinking "I am going to die here if I dont fight until I cant fight anymore...I cant go like this". The strangest thing is the silence.....dead silence, there is no sound but your thoughts and its earily peaceful and scary at the same time.
If the mods need to move this its ok. I just needed to write something, I am still not right from it and I am supposed to be watched for a day to make sure pnuemonia does not set in. I hope this doesnt sound like whining.
Thanks for listening.