Thank you all for your kind words. Joe, it sounds like you have concerns as I do, my dad and sister. My mom was the glue to bring us back to Hacienda Heights for Mother's, Father's days, as well as Christmas and maybe Easter. My brother, sistere and I have 70 miles plus to get there, we have them surrounded. However, my sister is concerned that with mom gone, our family gatherings will go away. I have to find a way to not let that happen, for I know she could be right if we do not act.
My brother said that I handle things like water off a duck's back. He is somewhat correct. I am more relieved that mom is not suffering anymore. I cannot resolve in my own mind how it must be for some of you who watch many years go by as your loved ones deteriorate slowly. My heart sinks for you.
I sobbed after I reviewed my post and then I posted it. I believe this to be therapeutical. Hearing other's stories similar (very surprisingly) helps me to know that we are not alone in our griefs.
BF is a community, and very much like a family. I will never use the phrase "Do not take it seriously, it is just the internet." The internet exists because real people are behind the text. It is a digital voice, and this digital voice can be used to bless or curse.
Thank you all for blessing me so much.