Thanks for those good thoughts for my cousin guys. I am not one to cry...in fact it has been about 5 years (when my dog died). But I'm shook from this news. The little guy is such a good fella and has no fear. When he heard the news he said we will all get through it. It is especially hard because I am currently working with some 6th graders, which is the grade he is in. But that is life and as sick as it can seem sometimes....there are other moments that make all the shit worth while. Once again, I appreciate it, and I know every one of you has issues. So I am by no means discounting the importance or value of them as I have been posting about him. I will let you guys know the updates as they come. I think I am like a lot of guys, when i feel hurt...an anger rises within me. However, now that I am older I have no peers who are jerk offs to let it out on. So telling you guys and a few friends is helping me cope.