Oh believe me carimon I am. 4 years of dating and 21 years of marriage add up to 25 years, 1/2 of my life. I'm only making a bad joke when I posted what I did. The last 6 weeks have been the worst of my entire life, and I know everyone says it will get better, but the only way I see it getting better is if we are able to work things out and restore our marriage. I would not wish what I've been going through on my worst enemy. I do love my wife and am not ashamed to admit it, and will take all the prayers that anyone and everyone are willing to offer. There has not been one single day during this time that I have not broken down sometime during the day..................