Feeling miserable (kind of "whine" material, sorry)

Ashes,

A couple of months ago you were writing posts about how things were going pretty well, and it was obvious from your posts that you are strong and brave.

Even though things are hard at the moment, you are still strong and brave, and no one can take those positive attributes away from you.

In time strength and courage pay off.

Good luck.

David
 
Cindy Denning said:
Not to take away from this thread Ashes, but Geno acts the same way Alice does when I have to de-flea him and heck, just move the crate further from the house !
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You are a wicked woman, love your work.

Ashes, just a few drunken Aussie evaluations to add - you appear to be an individual that displays excessive compulsive behaviour ( ie. moderation is not in your psychological make up ). This is a great trait, most of the extremely successful people I have met are also wired this way.
You just have to learn to keep a handle on it, work out the addictive things in life that will make you fire up and those that will burn you out. Sit down, write out a list of your excesses, both constructive ( exercise, work, partners, family etc etc. ) and destructive ( alcohol, drugs, good looking knife makers etc etc ) - be honest, - then write a list of all the things you want to achieve in life ( be ambitious ).
Addictions are hard to control if you have no clearly defined life goals. Addictions don't go away on their own, it takes motivation, pain, acknowledgement and support. You are young enough, smart enough, have lots of support - now its up to you girl - its time to do it tough, make a stand in your life and say NO to everything that hinders you from being Great.
Do it now, tomorrow is always one day away.
Good luck, I know how tough it is, I have walked down this path of addiction and know you can make the changes if you give it your best shot.
 
Stockman, great post. Thank you. :)

The thing about the drinking is that I need to want to stop, and right at this moment, I don't want to stop. I feel like I'm going to explode if I can't have a few drinks at the end of the day.

The main thing is with my parents. I work for my father, but my mom is my best friend. They separated very recently and he (WAY too recently) began seeing another woman. (See my conflict? She can't even talk to him yet.) I read an email she sent him (he left his mail open in the office and OOPS! I accidentally clicked on it when I saw the woman's name as the sender) and I sent her an email in response. It may have been wrong, but I think I can be pretty clear with words sometimes, and I don't think I said anything out of line.

I resolved things with my father today, at least for now. I broke down at work after the guys (jokingly, apparently) took apart my stereo and I couldn't get it working again, then talking to the veterinarian about my cat... (After waking up to clean up dog piss at three a.m. and trying to get by on almost no sleep.) My father caught me crying in the office... We talked, and he told me to go home. Then he actually hugged me for the first time in like ten years. I think he was so relieved that I'm willing to forgive him over the whole "family" crap. I told him I'll work late tomorrow and come in on Sunday if I don't get the knives finished. I couldn't deal with the guys there today; tomorrow I can be alone in the shop.

After work I went to a female friend's house. She is actually the wife of a guy I work with. We are pretty good friends when we actually find time to hang out together, but I hadn't seen her in a while. I saw she was home on my way home, so I stopped by. She was great. We talked and I played with her kids and all of them made me feel better. Her nine year-old is the cutest, sweetest, most awesome little boy I have ever met. But he wants to be a girl. He plays with girls' toys and dressed up as a princess last Halloween. Today he was showing me his e-bay account, and all the vintage barbie stuff he was bidding on, lol. I love that kid. The other two are younger, but they're cute too. ;)

I don't know who the heck could possibly be reading this, but I haven't been keeping up with my blog, so I suppose I'm just kinda writing to myself at this point, lol...

~ashes
 
Ashes,
You like knives and cats. You kick ass. I wish I could say something to you that didn't sound generic, but I simply just came across yer thread and saw you were down, and wanted you to know someone who doesn't know you still cares.
Booze sucks the big wang, and a few people on this forum know that sometimes the only way to get peace or entertainment is the bad way. It takes a life/personality/mind changing decision to quit. Don't sweat it with that. Quitting kicks ass and needs to be done, but try not to let yerself get depressed about having a problem. Try have a few laughs along the way. I hope it isn't affecting yer day to day life, good luck.

- Bzzhewt
 
Matthew 15:14

Let them alone: they be blind leaders of the blind. And if the blind lead the blind, both shall fall into the ditch.

Watch out for the ditches - you two!
 
Nordic, as a person who grew up as a Christian, went to church, home school, Christian elementary school, Christian boarding high school, Christian college (all Seventh Day Adventist), hates religion, and LOVES GOD, let me thank you for the generic bit of scripture that will undoubtedly change my life! Now that I heard that cryptic bit of mysteriom, I learned something I would have never known. :o


P.S. Ain't it cool that God loves us, even though we all suck?!
(Nordic, please don't be a boob and turn this into a religion debate, cuz I have truly heard it all :yawn: )
Are you Catholic?
 
Ashes,

I'm glad to hear that you and your father have reconciled matters. My own daughter is thirteen and although she hides it well, I can tell that she's having issues with her mother and I being separated. Compounding the problem is the fact that my ex is extremely immature and bitter and therefore not above badmouthing me or using our child as a pawn. Your story merely underscores the need for discretion when children are involved, and thus far I've kept my dates more sequestered than the O.J. jury.

Hope you and your father will hug more often, as I know it must have made his day also. Fathers love their little girls, you know. :)
 
bzzhewt said:
(Nordic, please don't be a boob and turn this into a religion debate, cuz I have truly heard it all :yawn: )
Are you Catholic?
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No, I'm Swedish. :p

I just found it amusing that both of you posted self-loathe threads and then give self-help advice to each other.
 
Nordic Viking said:
No, I'm Swedish. :p

I just found it amusing that both of you posted self-loathe threads and then give self-help advice to each other.
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Sometimes those in the same boat can help eachother bucket water out of a sinking boat better than some fisherman on the shore yelling advice ;)
 
I think the only one who loathes us is you, Nordic.
I hope I can get to heaven, what with my evil actions at all. God doesn't care about who we are, just what we do! Maybe I should become Perfect!
After all, only Perfect people go to heaven!
 
In my best Spartans' cheer-

Sorry, Nick, that was not helpful. This thread is not in Whine & Cheese -- yet.

Edited in hopes of keeping it Community-friendly. -- Esav Benyamin

Okay, somehow it seemed helpful ;) :)

-Nick-
 
bzzhewt, NV, please. This thread is borderline anyway, let's give it a chance, without the kind of off-topic drift that's going to kick it out of the Community Center:

Ashes
Feeling miserable (kind of "whine" material, sorry)
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This might qualify as a whine, but I'm sticking with community since people tend to be nicer to you here, and I need people to be nice to me.
 
Esav, pardon my ignorance, but does NV mean no violence? I am a bit confused and don't want to cross the line.
Just speaking my piece.
Thanx.
 
Hey Aunty,

Hozit goingz Kyler here, I can really give you any advice. I'm playing guitar right now, THIS ONE GOES OUT TO THAT PRETTY WAHINE!


Easy Street


preformed by: Kanalo
sheet by: Travis @ www.islemusic.cjb.net

intro: Gm F Gm F Eb F

Gm F
i said i can't believe it
Gm F
now that things have changed
Eb
i only want to see the way you feel for me
F
always remains the same
Gm F
i know we had to struggle
Gm F
but it was not in vain
Eb
on the bad years and the cryin of tears
F
still i never heard you complain


chorus:
Gm F
oh baby now that we livin a top an easy street
Gm
you make my life complete
Eb F
so keep on givin me sweet love (2x)



we never had much money
never had a dime to throw
even though we suffered
you were still my lover
boy you never leaved me alone
now the sun is shinin
everything is gonna be nice
how can i repay you for everyday
we have to make a sacrifice oh baby

(chorus)

rap:
all the might and tribulation have not been in vain
and you look what has restarted from all them years of pain
the consequences of our actions we must face lord
they made me something that can put you in your place
ignore all of the temptation livin within you
violation of your spirit imagination
got to set yourself free
because continue to rely upon each other
so we can remain upon the easy street oh oh oh

(chorus)2x
 
Esav Benyamin said:
bzzhewt, no problem. NV is Nordic Viking, your jousting partner. :)
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So.... Jousting is commenced in W&C at what time again? :D ;)


Hope all goes better for you ashes
 
Esav, Nordic,
I am not trying to joust. I just saw that Ashes was down and came here to say something to her, and found a lot of what looked like off-topic judgement toward her. I wanted to give my 2 cents worth towards her predicament and defend her against what developed into a thread about her drinking. Then I read some material that hit me the wrong way and pissed me off.
I will not wreck Ashes' post with this BS any more, and I don't want hard feelings anywhere.
Its all just discussion. And the only reason I'm on this forum is to learn and BS a bit-- simply discuss.
So apologies to all for anything that got out of line.
 
Nordic Viking said:
Matthew 15:14

Let them alone: they be blind leaders of the blind. And if the blind lead the blind, both shall fall into the ditch.

Watch out for the ditches - you two!
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I perceived that as an insult. Please read my post more carefully and understand what I am saying before you throw judgements around.
 
No hard feelings -- it IS all just discussion. I was only trying to keep it from getting too heated, and bounced out of Community.
 
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