I have smoked for the last 15 years. Got up to 3 packs a day, and "cut back" to one a day. Its seriously affecting my quality of life, but i just cant make myself WANT to quit. I cant stand the smell on my clothes, vehicle, home, etc. Its disgusting. Its trashy. Its expensive. Its deadly. Problem is, i LOVE to smoke. Oh the irony. When ive tried to quit in the past, the withdrawals are heinous for me. My vision is like looking through a pane of shattered glass, i get so sick, cant think straight. Make stupid choices and mistakes. But the worst is the irritability. Im highly anxious and irritable by nature anyway, but then it goes so far off the charts, that i legitimately risk getting fired or possibly even jail. I completely lose all reason when im like that. And im normally extremely calculating and clear headed. I absolutely NEED to quit, but i cant get my mind to agree. Cant make myself take that first step because when it all boils down, i still WANT to smoke. My poor mom has smoked for the last 40 years and tried to quit for the sake of health insurance. Understand, i have NEVER known anyone with even close to the amount of willpower this woman has. She quit for an entire month, and had to start back up because her withdrawals were actually getting worse after the first two weeks, which makes no logical sense at all. Plainly put. Im scared. My willpower is honestly very weak, so if she couldnt do it, what hope do i have? Thx for reading the long intro. What worked for you?