okay, important paradigm shift (yes, i had to use that word)
you are not "getting away with it"... that implies you are doing something wrong. you're not. this is a normal thing. everyday. you're hobby. you're interest. you're pursuit.
now, do you have some kind of agreement in place? no? then you're not getting away with anything. is the agreement being implied, coerced, or forced? maybe? non-binding then. you have to agree of your free will without coercion
so, there you have it. you have to re-program yourself. this isn't a bank robbery. this isn't a get away
zippy doo dah baby