I usually just shave my arm hair to test the sharpness... works better than self harm and you don't have to hone again later (as if cutting paper means something to a user blade)...
This is pretty extreme and seems to be an ongoing thing from what I saw in the thread. So I realized the true reason why you test sharpness this way is because you actually want to cut yourself.
I also don't know why would you post about it on the forum.
My serious advice would be to find someone to talk to. I don't mean this as talking down to you, I just mean that you could probably use some help. This doesn't seem healthy.
This is pretty extreme and seems to be an ongoing thing from what I saw in the thread. So I realized the true reason why you test sharpness this way is because you actually want to cut yourself.
I also don't know why would you post about it on the forum.
My serious advice would be to find someone to talk to. I don't mean this as talking down to you, I just mean that you could probably use some help. This doesn't seem healthy.