Hi all. Thanks very much for your concern. UW Mitch called on Monday, I guess, and I talked with Bruce Evans yesterday by phone.
The primary reason I have so much time to devote to the forums, is the fact I'm disabled. There are 4 bases for that: PTSD; clinical depression; fibromyalgia; and migraines. Obviously, being quite obsessive fits in there somewhere too.
My son awakened me on the morning of 9/11 to tell me that a plane had crashed into a building in New York. That was before the second plane hit. Possessing a good dose of paranoia goes with PTSD, I fear. I was sure it was a terrorist attack. Was able to see the 2nd plane hit. Basically, since then, almost all my waking time has been devoted to watching television news. I hadn't been on the internet since then until yesterday, when I looked at a couple of Bruce's knives while talking to him. I opened a couple pieces of e-mail on about the Saturday or Sunday and responded to them. Other than that, I've not looked at any e-mail either.
I owe 2 people money. I'm good for it, I just can't yet tear myself away from the TV. However silly it may sound, getting on to write this message is one of the most difficult things I've done. Until after any military strikes against Afghanistan are complete, I can't promise that I'll be back on, or get my mail and obligations taken care of. It is very embarrassing to expose how much my mental illness controls me and my life sometimes, but there it is.
My uncle died a few days ago, and that has helped keep me in the combination paranoia, depression, and hyper alertness that have gripped me for these 3 weeks.
As fast as I can, I'll be back, and making everyone wonder why I post so much.
Again, thanks for your concern. I can't tell you how much it means to me. I live a very solitary life, essentially having only one friend, and one cousin with whom I communicate fairly frequently, who has just recently been diagnosed with Multiple Sclerosis. This is particularly depressing because our mutual aunt was totally disabled by MS from the time we were young until her death.
I really need to stop thinking about the terrorist situation at least part of the time, but am unable to do so at present. I am working at it.
Thanks,