Jax, you have been thru hardtimes for sure...I too have been down that road with my Dad....now watching my bedfast Mom slip...real tuff. One consolation I found with my Dad is that he is at peace and the pain I feel is MY personal loss...this does not make it hurt less, but I found some comfort in this thought. My prayers are with you, your Mom, and of course, your Dad. Regards, Mike