ken erickson
I find it impressive & dignified that you say that one reason you drew back from knife-making is that you were concerned that you couldn't take it further or retain the level of finish that you were pleased with. Takes a lot of integrity & self-respect to air that, many lesser artisans would have gone on regardless. However, you are being far to harsh on yourself

I believe you may now have arrived at an ideal point: you just mothballed your workshop rather than broke it up, your other interests & projects are ticking over nicely so maybe you could start making a few knives over the long winter? Why not make what YOU want to make rather than customer commissions? That way it's win-win, what you make is what you are pleased with and the connoisseurs will be more than pleased to buy what you make available
Regards, Will