Hi Michael,
I am proud of what you have accomplished so far. Six pounds in six weeks is quite doable. You are close enough that the finish line is in sight.
Have you decided which model of knife you want as your reward? If not, have you narrowed it down to a few favorites?
Thanks for sharing your story with us.
Phil
Thanks, Phil. A few more days out of town this past week has made me feel like I'm moving in the wrong direction. I went to bed last night thinking I'd go mountain biking today, and I woke to find a thin blanket of snow covering everything. The cosmos is against me. Oh well, should know be home for a while, so as long as the stress stays down, i should be back on the straight and narrow.
It's funny, I began this journey with a kephart in mind, and that is where I still (or again) find myself. My Fiddleback "wish list" has sure grown, but everything I have been reading in the last months has continued to affirm that as the knife that fills the purposes I have in mind. Short of holding a similar knife of each handle type in my hands, I don't know what else to do.
All that said, I've been all over the page regarding configuration. Because I intend this to be a frequently used knife, I am leaning toward a synthetic handle. I really like wood on a frequently-carried-but-infrequently-used knife (like an EDC), but think some synthetics make more sense for the destiny of this knife. I'm thinking some Shadetree, though I guess I'll just see what pops up in a desirable configuration. I'm more drawn to evergreen or coffee bag or drunken burlap here, especially with an orange pinstripe. I'm pretty hung up on the tapered tang, though I'd love to see some comparison of balance points between tapered and sft in the same handle configuration to see how much difference it really makes. I think I want 5/32, though that is more my lack of trust in my own skills than the abilities of the knife. I've been watching mistwalker's review of 1/8 pretty close, and others have testified to the power of 1/8, so again, I'm not sure. I'm consciously trying to NOT get locked into the exact configuration in my mind, since I realize this is not a custom shop--I don't have the luxury of dictating exactly what I want. And that's ok. I suppose it adds to the surprise and enjoyment of the hunt.
Hey Michael, I am sorry to hear of the loss of a Church family member. I recently lost a colleague to suicide, and all I could do is shake my head and ask: why? What if? I should have ...
Some times our faith is challenged to the breaking point. I don't know why, but I know it is true.
Your girls and your family will really enjoy their new camping gear this year. But always remember that they will enjoy camping because you are present with them, not because they have a new tent or a new sleeping bag. Your challenge is a life affirming one. I am rooting that you will have that bonafide sheath filled with a beautiful Fiddleback when you take to the woods in a few weeks.
Thanks MVM. In this case there is a history of mental illness and multiple prior attempts. But it is no less a tragedy or a loss. And you're right, these are trying experiences for us as both human beings and as persons of faith.
And you are definitely right about the kids and the gear. I admit to being a gear head, but I know they don't care one lick about any of that. Our old tent was bought by the Frau and I almost 14 years ago. We paid $60 at Walmart for it. Some years, we have literally camped in it every other weekend between April and October. I have revealed it more times than I can count, and the netting repairs look like Maori tattoos covering everything. I bought a great tent, from a well known maker of backpacking gear. It ticks every box I wanted and makes up for every weakness of the old tent. And still when the excitement of something new wore off, my first grader asked what was wrong with "the yellow tent." Could we have kept using it? Probably. But I think MY experience of camping will be improved by the improved storm resistance. 😄
What a shame. I'm sorry to hear of your loss. It's something that I, unfortunately, understand all too well.
In regards to your own successes, congrats! 6 pounds isn't nothing, but I believe it's very doable. I'm curious to hear which model you plan on getting too. Don't let the sheath dictate that choice though. Get what you have your heart set on. Maybe we can talk you into getting into the leather bending side of things.
Responding to Phil, I shared some of my thoughts regarding my reward. I'm still blown away about the bonifide sheath, though. It's pretty incredible that I won anything, let alone a sheath that will fit the FB I have been eyeing. I may end up with a dangler (maybe from Tal--I love his work) at some point in the future. It's been years since I carried a sheath knife, so I'm interested in finding out which carry method works best for my body and activity type.
Leather bending..... Hmmmmm.... It sure looks fun, but I think the Frau would kill me if I suddenly needed a bunch more tools.
Knowing you guys are out there still rooting for me is an amazing source of strength. Thanks again for everything!
Michael