All these things I want to get. I want the Esee 6 and the Junglas, a customized BK2 leather sheath, a BK4 and 5, and I REALLY want to get my hands on a nice ZT/Kershaw blade. (but I'm definitely more stressed about the fixed blades)
Problem is I can only afford one of them at all, and if I did buy any of them, I would get in soooo much trouble with my mom and I'd make money problems for myself as I'm supposed to be saving up for trade school.
But it's really stressing me out. I'm feeling weird in the head and I'm picking at everything (I even dug a little hole into my thumb that really hurts) and I can't stop my feet from tapping. I've never been so affected by anything and I feel like those people who just stopped smoking because everything seems to be irritable and I can make it all go away with just one of those toys- but I can't afford it. T___T
How do you handle the addiction? Any cheap suggestions? I've tried hot baths, hitting things, chopping wood, making fires, sharpening my other knives and reading. No drugs ideas please.