Back when I was young and full of life and decompensating against an open desert sky, I knew a lot of addicts of one kind or another. The Speeders were their own Clan, of course, like all of them, though the Clans mixed and subgroups of people would cross over from one vice to another. Just as I was leaving that world, all of them, I heard something worth remembering. AT least, I thought it was. The Red Man.
I think this is mostly meth, dont think the coke crowd gets to know the Red Man. A few people I knew and trusted to be frequently coherent told me if you did the drug long enough, you became aware of a Presence, the Red Man. They called him that because he was red. AFter enough days and weeks without sleep, in periods lasting into years, you saw the Red Man. And once that happened, He Saw You. Once he saw you, he wouldn't let you go. He was in your thoughts, your mind.
I'd been through the DT's many times, and had my own rough stories. But something in this hit a nerve. It wasn't that I'd seen the Red Man, it was so many of these users had and the experience was similar. It scared me. There were things, Horatio, undreamt of in your philosophy.
There was the obvious, of course, that old devil come to call. But what was frightening was the subtle; how once you were touched, you were always touched. How He became aware of you. The Christians would have a hey day with this one, I knew.
There are certain pains and fears, some unvoiced, some unconsciously understood, that people share. There was something about this story that rang true.
I've met enough of my own demons not to want to meet the Red Man. I felt sorry for those that had, that believed they could not get out, could not cut off contact.
munk
I think this is mostly meth, dont think the coke crowd gets to know the Red Man. A few people I knew and trusted to be frequently coherent told me if you did the drug long enough, you became aware of a Presence, the Red Man. They called him that because he was red. AFter enough days and weeks without sleep, in periods lasting into years, you saw the Red Man. And once that happened, He Saw You. Once he saw you, he wouldn't let you go. He was in your thoughts, your mind.
I'd been through the DT's many times, and had my own rough stories. But something in this hit a nerve. It wasn't that I'd seen the Red Man, it was so many of these users had and the experience was similar. It scared me. There were things, Horatio, undreamt of in your philosophy.
There was the obvious, of course, that old devil come to call. But what was frightening was the subtle; how once you were touched, you were always touched. How He became aware of you. The Christians would have a hey day with this one, I knew.
There are certain pains and fears, some unvoiced, some unconsciously understood, that people share. There was something about this story that rang true.
I've met enough of my own demons not to want to meet the Red Man. I felt sorry for those that had, that believed they could not get out, could not cut off contact.
munk