If your parents are ok with you making knives have one of them give me a call at the number listed below. With their permission I will send you a piece of steel, some handle scales, & some pin stock. You'll have everything you need to make your first knife except tools, abrasives, epoxy etc.. I will also heat treat the blade for free when you have it ready to do so.
It probably wont turn out to be a beautiful showpiece but if you do your part it will make a good tool. It will also prove that you can make a knife. That proof will be more important to YOU than anyone else. Don't worry, you can do it. There are many knowledgeable people here who will offer tips and tricks on every step of the process. We'll get you there, all you have to do is put forth some effort. If you enjoy the outcome, you can make more and each one will be better than the last.