This has been a problem for me the entirety of my life....hobbies. Too many interesting things, too little time and $$. Also, without the dedicated focus of someone who picks ONE thing and concentrates on that, I am an absolute master of none - don't know if I'd even consider myself a "jack of all trades", really. Dilettante, perhaps.....I need to retire right now and have several clones made in order to learn and do what I dream of learning and doing.
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.This, it occurs to me, is a sad realization about my life. Exacerbated by my job, which is sucking the life out of me - but pays the bills and keeps my family insured....hard to look for a job when one is working 50-60 hr. weeks and on call every 3rd....I have time now, of course - but I'm pretty sure I'd be persona non grata and the worst father/spouse ever if I fired up machinery at this hour. I keep thinking; this is not what my 50's were supposed to look like.
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Sad, middle aged screed over. Please feel free to ignore this post.