Jacob,
As someone who hasn't post a single picture of anything yet, your first knife is looking good. Like you said, its your first. Maybe I'll post one of the last surviving rebar abortions I made 23ish years ago- if I can find it and one of my newer knives that should really be a lot better made considering how much time I spend on them.
It is fun to shine them up, but I have found that you either have to go sooo low on grit size after heat treat to get back to the high grit that itsa waste of belt life- when I tried to use the higher grit belts to knock of the oxide and oil residue, it just loaded up the belts real bad.
Don't take the hurtful words of others to heart. Sometimes the harder you try, the harder it gets. Read between the lines and take the technical advice. The way the new guys get treated in law enforcement is sort of like this, except there's nextel, dispatchers, the rest of the guys on shift, Sgts, Lts, off duty LEO, undercover and LEO family and friends that all get in on the monkey business. After a year or so you get left alone and join the wolf pack in making the next group feel welcome. Or maybe you misunderstand and quit...as we say down here, Walmart pays good and they give you free sunscreen when you have to get them carts in the parking lot. Stick around, get better with each knife.