Hey Ed,
I understand what your saying. I was really thinking everything was going to be a quick process, everything but the new leg walking/problems.
It's really amazing how much effect my entire body has/is going through.
I was in perfectly normal shape before this accident, but now it takes me a good couple hours every morning before I feel decent enough to get on with the day. I feel like a old crippled man. Every joint and muscle aches. It really has gotten better, but it's still there.
I was on the verge of having a problem with my meds for a while too. I was on so many painkillers in and out of the hospital for so long, that when I wasn't taking them, I felt like crap. It took me a couple days to figure out that I was addicted to them. I wouldn't have any pain so I wouldn't take the painkillers, but I wouldn't feel right. I would have a different kind of body ache, and this sick little nagging in my stomache. It went away and I felt great after I popped some pills.
Well, one day, it finally hit me like a ton of bricks...........I'm addicted to oxycodone, oxycotin, morphine, nueratin, and vicodin.
This new addiction didn't shock me, but I was disappointed in myself. I know some great guys that have lost everything because of these little pills I never really gave a second thought about. It's weird that I thought I couldn't develope a problem.
It took me a couple weeks to ween myself. On really bad days I might take one or two here and there, but I try my best not to take any at all.
My buddies and co-workers pitch me crap all the time cause I can't put in 40 hrs. and I sometimes don't work for days at a time, especially since I sit in a chair and get the gravy jobs. It's been hard for them to understand that my entire system was rocked. Hard for me too. I thought I would be working 40 hrs+ two months ago. The doctors even tried telling my how difficult it might be when I called and asked to be released back to work. Now I know why they were suprised.
Anyhow, I wanted to check in on you guys. No pics today since it rained pretty good and I stayed inside. I did strap up the leg and it felt good. I can tell I will be having a love-hate relationship with it for a while.
Later my friends,
Scott
Thanks for words Ed.