I am so sorry to hear this, my wife had cervical cancer when she was just 29, it's been 6 years since, and she is fine, thank god. But I have at least an idea of what you're feeling, if you need anything, I'm in South Florida, let me know, drop me an email and I'll do my best to help. Or, if you just need to talk, that's fine too. I wish you guys the best of luck, I'm not a praying man, but I'll say some for you anyway, try to have faith that there is a reason for everything, no matter how bad it seems.
Ari