Me crazy? Hard telling, does a person with mental problems actually know there is a problem? I have alot of people tell me: "you are not right."
Antisocial? Yes. 90% of the time I would rather be alone. I have never been a big conversationalist. I usually just listen to people and let them lead the conversation. I don't really have much to say, unless we start talking about knives.
I have been single for almost four years now and love the time I have for myself. To be honest, I don't think there is a woman out there that could put up with me. I always hated having roomates, and I even get sick of my buddy when we go down to Talladega for a week. After 3 or 4 days, I have had enough, and want to be left alone.
Depressed? Not really, I have my "spells" every now and then. Hopefully it is normal to not always want to get out of bed in the morning and goto work. Sometimes I lay there for a half an hour or so and convince myself that I have to go to work. I would much rather spend all day in the shop.
I used to "self medicate" quite heavily. I still do every once and a while, but now I would rather spend my money and time working on a knife or hanging out with my kid.
I have to spend 45 to 60 hours a week at work dealing with idiots and a**holes, so when I get home all I typically want to do is work on a knife. It is quite theraputic for me to "get into the zone" while grinding or forging. Like was said before, it just starts to flow, and any perception of time disappears.
It is good for me and it "feels" right. Hopefully when they comitt me to the physc ward, they will let me bring my grinder.
