Couldnt sleep, fucked up head again.
Its a very difficult life when you dont have a past. Dont have things you can talk about with your friends and family. Im not much of a talker any way, but it sucks
. When you have a wealth of experience based knowledge that it is difficult to share, because EVERY piece of paper ever written about you points out the bad.
How do you know that?
I just do
.
You cant just know that
where did you learn that?
Oh look
a bird.
Imagine if you didnt have an adult life up until you were 30. Born at age 30.
When I was 18 I went in the Army
then I had an injury that didnt show up on Xrays. (soft tissue), didnt meet any criteria. Was I making it up? (I was told by an e-MD just today through a PM that I was making it up). Got out of the Army and fell down to the point that I went to prison. That of course was the key sentence, micks ball and chain
fell down to the point that I went to prison
That is the encapsulated moment of my life that makes mick bad.
Truth be known, I would have gone back to it. Prison would not have rehabilitated me in any way. I would have gotten out of prison and been gone the next day. I was very self destructive in those days.
So then what? Why the change of heart?
My son.
Forest saved me.
Am I bad because I tried my hardest to serve my Country but couldnt? Of course not.
Am I bad because I went to prison? I WAS. You have to decide if I AM.
Have I misrepresented myself? Not that I know of
but that is not for me to decide.
As far as I know
ive been telling people for years
short time Ranger, fuck up, prison, knives.
Because ive been to prison, im a Pariah. I dont count. Cant vote, cant own a fire arm to protect my family, and of course am an easy target for all of the e-heroes out there who use their eBalls to attack someone they know nothing about. Im not even allowed the privacy of a normal human. These people are TRYING to get me arrested again! Lets try and catch mick with a gun!
Correct me if im wrong
.are we getting carried away?
Mick Strider is a knife maker. I make knives. I stand at a machine and make metal dust.
Why the passion to get me?
Im no one! I just make cool knives!
I wouldnt trade my experiences
but it sucks to have to be called a liar for the rest of my life (omission is a lie, im told) because of things I did before I was 25.
Ive lost two marriages over it. I REALLY loved my wives
. Both of them, Destroyed through miscommunication and PTSD symptoms
both are great for a Marriage....
Being attacked continuously on the internet doesnt help my brain much. I do pretty well at ignoring it, but I would be a liar to say it doesnt affect me. Of course it does, but it affects me in ways that are different from how it would affect you. Im lucky or unlucky, how ever you want to think about it, in that I just assume everyone thinks im a shitbag. Its a side effect of getting out of prison at 30 I guess. So I dont take it personally when im attacked on the internet. What I am is disgusted, and a bit enraged, that people could be so incredibly low. This behavior is SO much lower than that of prison inmates
its truly vile. How could you be filled with that much hate?
Unfortunately, im completely defenseless against these attacks. My friends jump in and take my hits for me
but it doesnt do any good. A million people who know me personally, cant change the mind of someone who believes what they want to.
Because of the fact that im defenseless, im an easy target, and it wont go away.
I personally am not interested in having computer arguments with people. I dont have the time. Which brings me to my point.
Lifes little changes:
Im defenseless against internet attacks, as we all know, mick is eBad!
Im not much for defense anyway
.defense isnt my gig.
At the same time
..i dont give a fuck about these guys, and dont feel any need to go to eWar.
What is my option?
Success of course.
In the continued effort to overcome my past
.
Every thing bad in my life is on the internet.
I spend WAY too much time cooling the fires of the attacks on mick.
Im gonna stay away from the internet for a while. They can shout at that machine as loud as they want, I wont hear a thing.
I cant tell you what to do, but if it was up to me, you would not bother to respond to Mick bashing. All they want is attention
.not giving it is the worst punishment I suggest you stay as far away from those people as you can. Remember that your life is short, and the more time you spend arguing with retards, the more retarded you become.
Those people have lost my attention. If I cant kill them with a hammer, ill kill them with more success.
See you in person.
m